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Close to suicide
I am addicted to oxy and norco. I have stopped taking the oxy (ran out today) I have about 12 norco left with a refill for 180 - after that I can't get anymore for a month unless I buy them on the street. I am done - I cannot live like this anymore and am desperate to get off but don't know how without agony. Why is it so easy to get these and impossible to find out where to get suboxone or bupen to get off. I cannot live like this anymore and want to die. My whole life has been ruined behind my need for these drugs. Pleae help. HOW DO I QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Welcome to the forum! I know how hopeless addiction can make you feel but please get the word suicide out of your vocabulary! Like Freedom said above, you have to have the absolute resolve to quit and it sounds like you do. Also realizing that you have a problem is a huge first step. With the help of this forum, you can and will make it.
Have you tried to taper at all in the past? Doing so can help alleviate some of the withdrawal symptoms. It does take so much willpower and some have to just go cold turkey. You just have to do what works best for you. Once you decide which route you are gonna take, you have to make a plan. You have to cut off access to the pills such as canceling your refills and telling your doctor that you have a problem. It makes it all too easy to relapse knowing you have a refill in the future. If you thing suboxone is the way to go, you can find a doctor out there to prescribe it. Just know that it too has its price. If you don't plan on staying on it forever you will suffer through withdrawals from it also. So you have to make sure you do plenty of research before taking that plunge. Many say to use sub as a last resort once you have failed multiple times at trying to get clean. But that decision is up to you. If you go to naabt dot org you can find a doctor in your area.
Although there is nothing that will take away the withdrawals completely, there are a few things that can help. There is no painless way though. If there was a painless way there wouldn't be such a thing as addiction as we could all quit whenever we wanted. There is never a easy way out. You just have to want it more than anything and fight for your life. As another member of our forum always says, "you just have to be okay with not being okay for a little while". In the upper right hand side of the screen you will see a link that says "health pages". In there you will find the amino acid protocol. It gives a list of vitamins and supplements that can help our bodies get back on track. I feel it also helps mentally as we are still shoveling pills down our face. Also, exercise works wonders! It helps release our natural endorphins that we stopped producing while on the pills. I know it may seem impossible to muster up the energy to do so but even a short walk will help. I would always throw in the headphones with some of my favorite music and force myself to walk. While walking I didn't really notice the withdrawals and I was kind of in my own little world. It felt great! Also be sure to eat healthy and drink plenty of good fluids such as water, gatorade, and juice. Maybe take it easy on citrus type juices such as orange or grapefruit juice as it may upset your tummy. Take immodium for the stomach issues and ibuprofen for the aches and pains associated with withdrawals. Take very hot baths. That will help relax your muscles. For the restless legs there is a over the counter med called Highland's Restful Legs. I have never used it but have heard great things about it. For the insomnia try melatonin. It is a natural sleep aid.
Most of all just keep a positive attitude. Tell yourself that failure is not a option. Come on here and post as much as you need. Come and post even if you just feel like venting. There are some wonderful and amazing people on here that will help you though this and will not judge. Most if not all have been in your position and know exactly where you are coming from. You are not alone in this battle. Just know that with each passing day it will get better and better. Hang in there and if you need anything, please let me know!
Best of luck to you!
Brian
Have you tried to taper at all in the past? Doing so can help alleviate some of the withdrawal symptoms. It does take so much willpower and some have to just go cold turkey. You just have to do what works best for you. Once you decide which route you are gonna take, you have to make a plan. You have to cut off access to the pills such as canceling your refills and telling your doctor that you have a problem. It makes it all too easy to relapse knowing you have a refill in the future. If you thing suboxone is the way to go, you can find a doctor out there to prescribe it. Just know that it too has its price. If you don't plan on staying on it forever you will suffer through withdrawals from it also. So you have to make sure you do plenty of research before taking that plunge. Many say to use sub as a last resort once you have failed multiple times at trying to get clean. But that decision is up to you. If you go to naabt dot org you can find a doctor in your area.
Although there is nothing that will take away the withdrawals completely, there are a few things that can help. There is no painless way though. If there was a painless way there wouldn't be such a thing as addiction as we could all quit whenever we wanted. There is never a easy way out. You just have to want it more than anything and fight for your life. As another member of our forum always says, "you just have to be okay with not being okay for a little while". In the upper right hand side of the screen you will see a link that says "health pages". In there you will find the amino acid protocol. It gives a list of vitamins and supplements that can help our bodies get back on track. I feel it also helps mentally as we are still shoveling pills down our face. Also, exercise works wonders! It helps release our natural endorphins that we stopped producing while on the pills. I know it may seem impossible to muster up the energy to do so but even a short walk will help. I would always throw in the headphones with some of my favorite music and force myself to walk. While walking I didn't really notice the withdrawals and I was kind of in my own little world. It felt great! Also be sure to eat healthy and drink plenty of good fluids such as water, gatorade, and juice. Maybe take it easy on citrus type juices such as orange or grapefruit juice as it may upset your tummy. Take immodium for the stomach issues and ibuprofen for the aches and pains associated with withdrawals. Take very hot baths. That will help relax your muscles. For the restless legs there is a over the counter med called Highland's Restful Legs. I have never used it but have heard great things about it. For the insomnia try melatonin. It is a natural sleep aid.
Most of all just keep a positive attitude. Tell yourself that failure is not a option. Come on here and post as much as you need. Come and post even if you just feel like venting. There are some wonderful and amazing people on here that will help you though this and will not judge. Most if not all have been in your position and know exactly where you are coming from. You are not alone in this battle. Just know that with each passing day it will get better and better. Hang in there and if you need anything, please let me know!
Best of luck to you!
Brian
You start by the absolute resolve to quit...and it sounds like you are there. Then you add to it that folks here, that have successfully made it through to the other side, will say that life without drugs is truly AMAZING. Then you just fight like hell. Even if it is just one clean day here and there....you fight to get your life back.
There is no pain free way of doing this...but it can be done and life without drugs is filled with real emotions, feelings, ambition and all the other little things that make it great. As Tom Hanks in said in "A League of Their Own",..."the hard is what makes it great!"/
Research as much as you can about getting your body back on track (Amino Acid Protocol, Thomas Recipe, etc.)
We are here for you...there are soooo many great folks here, at every stage of recovery. Please continue to Post and believe in yourself and life. The reward ois closer than you think.
There is no pain free way of doing this...but it can be done and life without drugs is filled with real emotions, feelings, ambition and all the other little things that make it great. As Tom Hanks in said in "A League of Their Own",..."the hard is what makes it great!"/
Research as much as you can about getting your body back on track (Amino Acid Protocol, Thomas Recipe, etc.)
We are here for you...there are soooo many great folks here, at every stage of recovery. Please continue to Post and believe in yourself and life. The reward ois closer than you think.
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