Cough Syrup Addiction

[LacusClyne]

I am 25 this years i been abusing cough syrup with codeine going about 1 years... i know it bad for my body but i dunno why am i addicted to it... it all started out with friends influences and then i started to get hook on it. I use to take 90ml per day but few month back i try to tap down by taking 60ml per day... it really mess up my life when i didn't take, i will feel restless, hard to to sleep, leg pain, anxiety and panic attack, head dizzy and feel like vomiting and i lose all my appetite and then I did try to tap down to 40ml or even 30ml per day but when i take it in this way my throat will feel like burning sensation and my whole body will be like very hot and begin to have cold sweat and i feel not myself that is why i went back for higher dose i suppose 30ml and 40ml my body feel too immune already that why i feel it keep forcing me to go higher dose and when i go higher dose i will not have this kind of problem. I didn't have the courage to let my parents know, they will be disappointed and angry if they know. I tell my best friends they all encourage me to quit but they dunno what i am going through they think it easy to quit just like that and I am kind of feeling depress now and happen to Google to find ways to quit the addiction  and find this page and read about so many people with the same problem as me and recently i find it hard to poop i will stuck in toilet for like 30min just to pass all the things out and my poop is very black. I have talk to a doctor about it but he just advise me to cut down slowly by slowly and he prescribe me with sleep aid but good enough with the Valium i take 1 tablet every night before i went sleep the next day i will not have side effect such as head giddy, feel like vomiting and restless but when the effect go off i need to take another tablet to counter the side effect again and i scare i will become addict to Valium next time. I will be finding job next year January and i wish to cut off totally now if not when i start work and i still taking this stuff it will mess up my works. i try going for cold turkey also but i really cannot control i will feel very tough not to take it and then i went back to take. i have lose 5 kg for this 1 years and i becoming very skinny. i really need some advise what should i do now and i don have much friends in real life i am always alone that why i resort to this kind of stuff... Pls Help...

[atthebeach]

Wow I was just thinking about you the other day.
Aww Hun. I am sorry you are struggling again. Going back to the doctor to get cough syrup wasn't the answer. You need to find someone local you can talk with. A counselor, therapist, a friend, yes even telling your parents. I know we talked about this s before and you were scared to tell them.
The cough syrup is not your friend. It is your enemy.

Since you quit have you gained weight, started eating again?
Where you doing anything else besides working?
What type of job did you have?
Hun how did you feel they were picking on you?

You are not alone in this.
Hugs
Debbie

[IBKleen]

This is an old post kids. Lacus..go to the top of this page and hit the "post a question" button. Follow the instructions to create your own post. This is a great place for support and you will receive comments from the community. If you need any help just ask.

[LadySailor86]

I'm here if u wanna message me. I'm very new to this but u seem to be struggling and alone. I'm waiting for my meeting time so I am just reading on this site. It's amazing to me how these people just know my exact thoughts and my exact pain. So I'm right here for ya.

[LadySailor86]

Yes  lacus, I'm talking to lol

[LacusClyne]

are u talking to me?

[LadySailor86]

Ps. Screw that company. I'm a business owner and anybody that can do what you did has a lot to offer. Tell them, do this thing, the meetings help tons and fix urself with me. Xoxox

[LadySailor86]

Ps. Screw that company. I'm a business owner and anybody that can do what you did has a lot to offer. Tell them, do this thing, the meetings help tons and fix urself with me. Xoxox

[LadySailor86]

Hey there. I'm a week new to this site and I'm in pure hell. Read my posts lol you identify with them. I'm a mom and Monday I had to tell my family I was addicted. I had been trying for awhile to stop on my own like you. But when it got to hard I went back. I could not imagine telling anyone. The shame was unbearable and I mean literally caused me physical pain. The anxeity was thru the roof.  The had NO idea. I was the perfect one. The oldest sister, the good daughter, the wife and mom everyone looked to to solve their problems. I can promise you this, if you tell them, their dissapoontment won't kill you. It won't hurt your worse than your worse withdrawal. It letsnyounhave the freedom you need to be sick and best this. Then it let's inhale the support you need when the times get rewally rocky and all you want is to give up. Tell them. It will be a huge weight off you. HUGE. Then after I get off that **** again and feel like going back, they got ur back. They will know what to look for and can help you stop yourself. Telling on myself removed all my access. At first it felt like I was being stupid cutting off my freedom that way. But now I know they are watching. I have boundaries. I welcome them and feel thankful for them. When I'm weak they will help me. Tell them. You have to. You've done this already I can't wait to be where you were. But imagine the guilt and shame lifting. Imagine someone hugging you thru this. Imagine someone bring you Tylenol and a Gatorade when you can't move. Closed minded doesn't mean they don't love you. As a mom I can tell you NOTHING would stop me from helping my child thru this. Give them a chance. You owe it to yourse or them. Otherwise they may all be standing at your funeral blaming themselves. Don't rob them of this chance to help you save yourself. Please please. Read my posts. You will know what I'm talking about.  Tell them.

[LacusClyne]

hi people i have quit for 5 month already but recently was not doing well in my new job i feel everyone is picking on me and i felt really useless and now i leave my job just for the sake of my pride i feel sad because i been working real hard for the company and yet i get all this treatment in return... i have taken back cough syrup for like 1 week plus already i don know what to do i feel like there that the only thing that can make me calm and i always cry in the middle of night but no one know and i am scare i will get addicted back if i take for long again i really need some listening ear now...

[LacusClyne]

Yep thanks to people here I can finally get off those stuff... I am fine... the wds mostly all gone... it the metal part sometime that trigger it... but i try to distract myself to look other stuff... not much of a problem here haa... thanks...

[Ldytaz]

Wow u should be so proud..We r proud of u.15 days is awesome.keep it up and come back here.I have been on this site for a week or so and love coming here.Ppl r great.

[atthebeach]

Hey my friend. A very big congrats to you.
Wow 15 days already. That's great.
How's everything going?
Thanks for checking in.
Hugs, Debbie

[LacusClyne]

Hi just checking in to see how are you all.... for those who still going ct keep it up... the hard time will eventually past... just endure with it... it my 15 day today and looking forward to push thru one month... never thought I am able to quit in the first place... without thus site i guess i am still taking.
If I can do it you all should be able to... it all in your mind whether you want  a not... happy weekend ahead...

[LacusClyne]

Thanks... it good to be sober again...

[nonights]

I'm so proud of you for posting. You got this girl.

[odaat1]

Wow!! You DID it!!!! Congratulations on getting this far.....what a great feeling inside for you!!  Keep in touch with us!!!  :))))

[LacusClyne]

thanks... atthebeach helped me alot actually haa... ya you are right summer899 you don feel like smoking when there is no codeine inside... i even quit smoking now... but still i have some cold shiver at random time and coughing i think probably due to my smoking issues...

[Summer899]

Hey congrats to day 4. I can't help but to agree with u that opiates made us smoke more. Im on day 2 and I have cut down on smoking too. U just don't feel like snoking that much when u have less codeine syrup in your body.
I really admire your courage and determination! Congrats!

[atthebeach]

Congratulations. Great job. I knew you could do it my friend.
Yes the mind games. I am so happy you are feeling better each day.
You will continue to heal. You are doing wonderful.
Yes you will gain back weight, as you begin to eat better.
Keep the up good work. I knew you had it in you.
Much love
Debbie

[LacusClyne]

i couldn't have done without this site... thanks to those who pm and share and help me... without this site i still don have the courage to quit... thanks so much for letting me having my life back...

[LacusClyne]

day 4 today... cannot imagine i make it to day 4... but one things i know for sure having to wake up everyday feeling better each day it all worth it and i don have to plan my trip to doc every single time... i am surprise i don have much wds like other as my diarrhea stop during the day 2 and some stomach cramps other then that i don have rls all this it make me realize it all in your head if you really want quit you got to be determine enough i even kill smoking together with opiate which i used to take opiate i can smoke a lot but now i don even feel like smoking...  am thinking will my weight goes back cause i have lose quite a lot of weight... thinking back that 1 year i dunno how many damage i done to my body lol...

[LacusClyne]

Ok I will do my best... today feeling ok just keep going to toilet hhaving stomach issues but other then that all is well...

[atthebeach]

great. stay at 40 for a day or two.

[LacusClyne]

Alright am taking 40 now.... will try to lower again if possible. ..