Couldn't even post on first one. Quitting dope.

[sayl_3m]

I tried quitting the first time, I'm too scared to look at the date on that. I'm down a lot more weight and my circulation is so bad my hands are blue typing this. Today I had to stop. I didn't know I how much I was doing was wrong. I was not only mistaken, I was lying to myself. The pain I am in right now is unreal. Eating again is like teaching myself how a jaw works, it gets sore like legs would after a run after the first bite. I can't eat a portion bigger than half my first. I get sick. It's only been since about a bit before my last quitting. I'm scared. I'm 22. If this keeps on I will die very soon. I'm not ready to die. I need tips, ideas, advice. I don't even want to eat sober because the weight loss feels so amazing. I can't go to a doctor right now or hospital, out of the question. I AM away from meth and unable to get any. Please.. I don't know how to genuinely ask for help right now.. The last bowl I forced myself to smoke and it made me sick. When I can see a doctor I will, until then unattainable and in need of someone who has quit this before to speak to me. Again.. So. Scared. Gotta run hit water on my hands..

[VICourageous]

Sending some Prayers YOUR way!!

I agree with the above about staying away from your user friends. Misery loves company. Please seek some kind of Support. Go and see a DR NOW!!!

I am a 50's child and used it all..(not proud but feel dumb) However, this is a Disease which affects the brain and the organs and so forth..I ended up with 2 stents in my Heart and I know it had so much to do with my DOCS which were the ones that kept me going. PLEASE get out while you can. You do not want to wake up one day older and wonder what happen to all those precious years. YOU are young and have so much to look forward too! Seek help it is really worth it to live a nice clean and healthy life.

These types of post really tear me up!
I will be praying for you.

[winthewar]

Hey there Sara glad to see you checked in.  But and I mean this in the nice way you need to get away from those who are feeding you the meth. Is your dad back in your life?  You think no one notices but they notice trust me.  If you could reach out to a women's shelter for help maybe you need some support some in person support.  Your the only one who can make that choice, I hope you choose life.  

[nonights]

Honey I want you to know that you can have a happy life. Bad things have happened to you but you can still have a happy life. But you have to seek some type of face to face help. When abuse happens early in your life it takes hard work and a willingness to do whatever it takes. It is so worth it. To make good come out of my situation I am determined to break the cycle for the next generation. Please seek some face to face help.

[NeverAgain127]

I'm not sure what I can say to you that hasn't been said before honey.

Your brain is not working properly because you are still actively using.   You cannot see this and it is obvious from what you write.   We are trying to help you, but it seems you are just spinning your wheels.    

Please do not take this as harsh, but sweetie, what do you want?  Do you want an end to this madness, this insanity, this pain?  

If the answer is YES, you're going to have to take some advice here and trust that while it is going to feel uncomfortable, it is the right thing to do.  Of course therapy messes with your head...your head is not in a good place, and it can't get better until things change.   Recovery is possible...do you want it?  

[jifmoc]

Your situation is heartbreaking. I hope you write again. I notice you write and then disappear. That is why I ask how can we help you now. What you wrote about psychiatry and NA is completely incorrect. You are justifying staying in your comfort zone and using.

What will you change to get out of this situation?

[refills]

Keep posting. There are no judges here. No one gets help unless you post. You're not alone either. So many people have been where you are right now. So many people make it through to the other side. You are the only one who can say F**k it. I'm going to do this. It's not easy being where you are at and it's not easy getting away from it. I can tell you, you don't want to die. I thought I did at one time, now I realize I want to live. I have cancer that may be spreading through my body and I know as sure as I believe in God, I want to live. Now is the time to ask God for help as I know he will answer you. Take your stand and I'll say a prayer tonight for you. My Best Wishes to You..