Couldn't even post on first one. Quitting dope.

[sayl_3m]

I tried quitting the first time, I'm too scared to look at the date on that. I'm down a lot more weight and my circulation is so bad my hands are blue typing this. Today I had to stop. I didn't know I how much I was doing was wrong. I was not only mistaken, I was lying to myself. The pain I am in right now is unreal. Eating again is like teaching myself how a jaw works, it gets sore like legs would after a run after the first bite. I can't eat a portion bigger than half my first. I get sick. It's only been since about a bit before my last quitting. I'm scared. I'm 22. If this keeps on I will die very soon. I'm not ready to die. I need tips, ideas, advice. I don't even want to eat sober because the weight loss feels so amazing. I can't go to a doctor right now or hospital, out of the question. I AM away from meth and unable to get any. Please.. I don't know how to genuinely ask for help right now.. The last bowl I forced myself to smoke and it made me sick. When I can see a doctor I will, until then unattainable and in need of someone who has quit this before to speak to me. Again.. So. Scared. Gotta run hit water on my hands..

[winthewar]

Prayers her way it breaks my heart to hear stories like this.  I hope she finds a way to happiness and away from the evil.  Ms d thanks for being there for her!

[nonights]

Saying lots of prayers. I hope she has found the strength to live! So young. So much promise. Please lord keep her safe.

[msdelight]

Guys, let's say lots of prayers for this young lady. She pm'd me last night. Her situation is really really bad. She's being abused and she tried to take her life last night. Let's hope and pray she did not succeed. I hope she is safe in a hospital somewhere. God help her.

[Jerry198]

I looked for you everyday since you posted a few weeks back, Many of us have been in your similar situation and made small steps towards recovery only to fall two steps back and give up so your not alone. you seem like you really want help but for some reason are unwilling to seek ER help well at the rate you are going things don't look good at 22 I thought FTW and it took a real good friend to help me out LONG STORY but it was his dedication that saved my life because I did not care anymore I was doing H at the time well let me tell you 30 years later I have done some amazing things I never thought I would ever do when I was high ... you get the picture life is here only once don't waste it get some help because what you are doing is digging for help so put down that wall of yours and get some real help tweakers always think they look amazing because they fit in a size 2 but in reality that's not the case what you are doing is starving and that's not pretty so take everyone advice and make it to 23 clean and sober please..

[Seanimanadict]

I also agree with everyone please go to the e.r. that is nothing to play with its Russian roulette. We are here for you but can't make you do anything. The advice everyone gives is priceless and I haven't read anyone's advice that has been negative yet. Please listen to every one and get the medical attention you need,22 is so young but its also in your favor if you stop immediately and get help. You will most likely bounce back sooner than most. I'm not an expert as is wasn't my doc but yes I have had my fair share if a lot of drugs including meth or crank.  Don't worry about the weight worry about being healthy and getting your real life back together your only 22 and have so much ahead of you. Get clean and who knows maybe you will be able to help someone who was in your position one day on here. Also please stop talking about death that is scary, your not dead but may be possible if you give in I hate to say and there's no coming back from that trip. Sending prayers and strength your way ,Sean

[winthewar]

Yes never again I truly hope so also..she seems very fragile and in a state of meth use which may be why she won't go to hospital.  We are here for you but you have to help yourselve also my dear...please check in let us know how you area