I did it!

[AlessandrasMom]

Last Thursday I was more down and out than I'd ever been and I posted a journal entry titled "Why Can't I Stop"?
I made a promise to a new friend on here that with her support, I would not take another pill starting that next day, Friday.  Well, I didn't.  I didn't, I can't believe I'm saying that!!!  Thank you to everybody who posted on my journal, I kept reading and reading the posts over and over again and I'm so thankful to those of you who helped me.
I'm only online at work, hopefully now that I'm getting this demon out of the way, I can afford to go get myself a computer for home and get online now.  I wasn't in on Friday and I felt bad because I could not respond back, sorry!  I tried to get online with my phone but it kept telling me it wouldn't format to my screen, blah blah blah.
I'm on day 4 and I was smiling as I came into work this morning.  Granted, I'm working on no sleep, stomach issues and still the body aches, but I'm dealing with it!
Also, I woke up Friday morning with the flu and maybe that's why it was easy for me, who knows.  The hardest part through all this, is that my daughter who is 19 months old, is very, very sick.  Please pray for her.  In fact my husband just called and says she is no better and she is on day 4 of throwing up, diahrea, fever.
Thank you again, to everybody!
I have an appointment to see my old addiction counselor on Wednesday as well.  I'm finally proud of myself, for once.

[scaredmom330]

someone at MH fixed it,,,so it will have to be our own little secret...lol

[AlessandrasMom]

scaredmom, thanks for the laugh!  My boss just asked what I was laughing about, seriously!  I managed to choke down a bagel, and I've been drinking water.  I think it just goes right through me.....
Thank you for your words of encouragement, they mean so much, as do the prayers for my daughter!!

[scaredmom330]

Way to go! I am so proud of you!!! You can do this!!!! day 3 and 4 are the worst of it,so starting tomorrow you should feel better every day..don't forget to push the fluids...you my friend are on the road to recovery! remember one day at a time, keep posting and reading threads, they help so much...I am sorry to hear about your daughter, will keep both of you in my prayers...good luck and be strong..

hugs

[AlessandrasMom]

Utah - Thank you so much!  I've received some amazing support and couldn't have done it without this place, just have to make sure I keep doing it.  Thank you for the prayers also!  I'm so happy you made that decision not to take the Lortab!

Refusing, thanks for your help with the Sub withdrawals I was having.  I should have just stuck it out!

Sunny, it's on here at 8:00 too~!  I don't know if it's on at 6 on the west coast or not, I wonder about that, especially during sports.

My little girl isn't any better, hubby keeps calling with updates.  And I guess this morning was maybe the best it was going to get for me, it's going downhill fast.

[HelpinUtah]

Hun:
Your baby girl is in my prayers!  

[Sunnyd210]

LOL no its on tommorrow and wed. at 8 =) Well 8 my time I dont know how that works with different time zones. Does that mean it comes on at 6 on the west coast?

[refusingbondage]

Way to go!  I am so happy you are doing it and making it.. Its so hard for us but you are truly doing it and making it and you will feel better soon.  Congrats!!  Sorry to hear about your little girl, Ill keep her in my prayers.  Keep up all your hard work - it truly pays off!

[HelpinUtah]

WOOHOO!!!  Way to go - CONGRATS!  The support here is amazing!  I'm so happy for you.  I'm sorry you are still hurting - but you SHOULD BE PROUD!!!  

Love & Hugs,
Janet

[AlessandrasMom]

Nik - Way to go on day 6!!!!  I'm right behind you!  Thanks for thinking of my daughter!

neverb4 - I know you can do this!  I am here for you if you need anything, anything, just ask!    You are helping me as well, with all your kind words, thank you, they mean soooo much to me!  You'll get this victory this time, I have faith in you!

Sara - We've never talked before, but I just wanted to say that I truly admire you!  Thanks so much!!!

Puckster - Thank you sooo much!  I was kind of freaking out that I couldn't tell you that I stopped!  And kept my promise!  It feels so good!

Sunnyd - thank you so much.  Is AI on tonight?  LOL, I love that show!

When are my eyes going to get smaller?  My boss did a double take this morning, but he thinks I'm still coming off the flu.

[Sunnyd210]

Ohhhhh that is so AWESOME Im sooo proud of you. Great job and I hope you and ur daughter feel better soon =)

[dominosarah]

Good for you on taking your life back.  Stay true to yourself and keep pushing forward.  I hope your daughter gets better..........sara

[Puckster12]

I'm sooooooo proud of you!  I knew you could do it!  It's a huge accomplishment.  Keep up the good work!   You inspire me!!   :)

[neverb4addicted]

You rule girl...I am so glad to hear you say you have gotten this far.  It gives those of us like me hope that it can be done.  I am doing a taper off Oxy (the demon) and am very close to when I jump off cold turkey. Have gone from about 250mg a day to 40mg at the moment..I am terrified of ct..I think only because oxy has been my best friend for the last 8 years, yes I said 8..lol  I am not even sure who I am anymore without it its been so long.  I am starting to think clearer now on the lower dose but this is exactly where I was when I tried the first time (this is the second) to quit..its like this road block is where I got stopped and went back to full tilt where I was in the first place. People say relapse is normal and does happen sometimes...hopefully this is the time I can get to Victory..You give me hope that it can be done, thank you for being so honest and Congrats on where you have come too.  Not sure what your Drug of choice was but all addiction is addiction no matter what way we look at it.  It took alot and me finding this site to realize I was truly and "addict"...Your posts are welcomed as I said as I get hope it can be done from reading them...Way to go!!!  Good luck with keeping on the road to success..I pray for health for you child, and you....All the best, Your daughter is in my prayers, which I find I do lately when hadnt before..Funny we look to new places to find strength when we need it.
Neverb4addicted

[Niki09]

WTG! I have been off pills 6 days, not easy. I am so proud of u, addiction is a hard thing to overcome. I am so sorry to hear about ur daughter I will keep u both in my thoughts. Well keep ur head high and keep reaching out, u already did the hardest part.