Day 1. kinda freaking out.

[Ashelen]

Took my last 5mg today...I'm in withdrawal at the moment. I feel pretty good, but I know it's gonna get bad. I took one 5mg pill yesterday afternoon and then nothing until this afternoon and I was panicking. My husband didn't realize I was so upset but I was going insane inside. not because I was craving or anything but I just felt so scared....I know it's my body playing with my mind and I'm still completely determined, but omg...the panic is getting to me.

I took nyquil last night and slept like a baby. I figure I'll use it to sleep through the first few nights and then switch to using melatonin and valarian root after the acute withdrawals are gone....I have some L-glutamine and 5HTP - effective?

Also...if RLS wakes me up tonight, can I take the hyland's even though I plan to take nyquil?

thanks guys..a little panicky right now but determined..and mad as h$ll.

[mellie4]

Way to go!!!  It's great you're sleeping.  I'm getting very little sleep with the taper.  And I am VERY irritable.  I keep trying to stay in the day and not get discouraged about how much farther I have to go.  I can't believe you did this while watching 2 babies AND moving!!!

[Ashelen]

thanks guys! I slept all night again (woke up early but that's OK) without taking anything...definitely the least comfortable day for me. but around noon day 3 will be over and day 4 beginning and LORD I hope I'm on the upswing...I feel pretty good this morning, still uncomfortable...a little more depressed...but I know I'm emerging out the other side of all of this, so I'm keeping my spirits up. We're spending our first night in our new house tonight, so I've got that to look forward to :-)

you guys are amazing, I couldn't do this without!

and petro - my hydration has been pretty good...i made the mistake of downing a big bottle of gatorade before bed so I was peeing all night, lol

[petroglyph54]

You are most likely more than 1/2 way though the physical part of wd'ing. This stuff is  pretty sneaky though. It seemed to me at the time, I have the perfect pain for my type of meds [oxy]. I knew very well that if I took a pill it would bring me the exact relief I needed. But,after reading here long enough I respected what the "old timer's" had to say about rebound pain, and gave it more time. I endured plenty with just the otc's except for day 13, which was rediculous pain. It was 4am after days without sleep and I felt like I gave in, the med worked and the next day I was back at abstaining. You know your body best, if it's the stone's, you will do what's necessary, but just trying to warn you of the rebound pain, it's real, the drugs are sneaky. I'm sure you are knowledgeable about stone's. I'm sure there's more to know. I think if we are lucky most things can be cured nutritionally, certainly not everything. It just never works fast enough. Is your body having to process something different than usual? How's your hydration? You are doing great.

[10356]

Hi Ashelen.. Day 3 is hard for most so you are not alone ! with the amount you were taking in another day our 2 you will be feeling a easing of the wd symptoms.. although sleep may be elusive for a lil and your energy down You can combat this with staying busy throughout the day.. I know as a mom you are anyway :) You are doing so well If you can get out and take a walk in the evening by yourself our if you have a dog to walk all the better :) It does much for putting our thoughts into perspective and more for the symptoms.. You are Freeing more then your physical self you are freeing your emotions.. Who you really are. Your family may be taken back with who emerges as you may be :) I know I was.. Keep a positive attitude and do not look back for soon you will not remember why you were taking these pills everyday .. lesa

[FourChickens]

You got this.... your doing great.

[mellie4]

I'm so proud of you.  Fear is a big hurdle for most people, I think.  I know it is for me.  And I get the perfection thing, too.  I was like that when my kids were little.  I let it go a bit after my last baby.  He was sick and things couldn't be perfect because I needed to put him first.

I'm glad your pain (other than the kidneys) doesn't seem to be flaring out of control.  I hope you don't need surgery.  Keep up the good work ... you're really inspiring.