Day 2

[cathy499]

I am day 2 c/t and having a lot of trouble.  I have been prescribed and obtained many oxy's for about 12 years and have quit successfully in the past but am having trouble quitting for a while.  I can't believe that I have put myself and family in this horrible situation.  

[nojoke05]

Please don't take this the wrong way but don't go to a methadone clinic I've been on pills all my life and I'm quitting now and coming off methadon is harder than any pill please take my advice I wish I had someone tell me not to go when I first went

[cathy499]

And I have been clean for 68 hours now!

[cathy499]

I really appreciate the encouragement and slept for a while on and off with help from Xanax.  I do have a question about pain management--what about real pain?  I know a man who has debilitating disease and will forever he on pain pills--how do some not get addicted?  And what do I do about my true back pain which is one of the reasons I'm in this situation.  The money buying extra stuff is def. A problem but what about true pain management. Will I ever be able to take something for pain or will I always just have to deal with it.  Just trying to get through today and actually feel much better today--thank you immodium.  I definitely not as shakey.  This is hard!

[gnarly_1]

Hey I write these for ya hoping you wont find it till morning but knowing how this goes tells me your probably not sleeping and I just wanted to encourage you to keep pushing threw
I know just how hard it gets night after night not sleeping so if its 3 in the morning and your reading this just know its only temporary and eventually you will sleep as for the metal battle that a whole different story....I was in pain management for 16 1/2 yrs the only way to recovery is threw aftercare I was strung out so long I forgot what normal felt like
and when you come off methadone all of a sudden the world comes at you in tec/na/color and at 100miles an hour I have worked therw this with a substance abuse conslor for 2 1/2 yrs he help me get off it and now helps me stay off it and the pills your going to need help doing this but the effort is worth it good luck and God bless.....Gnarly

[cathy499]

Today was hard but a success!  I take comfort that others have gotten through what I am.  Feel pretty good right now except not sleeping.

[cathy499]

And I don't have any pills in the house.  That just wouldn't work.