Day 17.5 "Time To Get Things Done"

[justneedtotalk]

Well.....Here we are at day 17.5.  I am doing ok this morning, I am still fighting this cold and chaulk up my lack of energy to that.  I just wanted to post this moring about getting things done....I have truly taken it easy compared to my normal pace but sitting here on Monday at work and looking at all of the little detail stuff both professionally and personally have me in a slight panic.  My wife just told me that she was pregnant this morning (which we were trying and was planned) and I am meeting our loan rep at the bank this morning!  I started thinking of all the little financial things I need to take care of and then the stuff I have been neglecting at work and it hit me like a ton of bricks!  It wasn't a pain attack or anxiety or anything it was just an all out call to action.  I think this is what I need right now though.  I think that you have to at some point in your detox get back to work and fight through the rest of it.....I know not to ever exert myself but this stuff has to get done.....I lost about 25 pounds a few months ago and have put on weight over the past few weeks and need to get back to my exercise and lifting.....It is all about frame of mind and if you feel good about yourself and do not have a lot of lingering stresses I think it helps the brain heal and prevents relapse.

I can kind of prove it myself this morning.....When my wife told me that she was pregnant and when the flood of "To Do's" started to flood in, the first thing I thought of was pills....It was a strong craving because I knew that if I had 10-20 pils I could power through two days and get everything done.....I quickly turned it around and with this detox I always think about setting myself back in detox and that WILL NOT HAPPEN.....I cannot go through another day of bad detox.  I have to stay strong because once the craving passed, the thought of needing all of the money we can muster right now would be ruined if I were to use again.....So, I turned the craving into a positive.....My resolve is now stronger because I now have more mouths to feed and need to afford a bigger house!  

Well.....I hope everyone out there is finding ways to deal with their individual detoxes and cravings.....Life goes on after the pills stop and I guess this is the part they were talking about when they said trying to figure out how to live life sober is one of the parts of sobriety.  Hang in there everyone.....God bless!

[ImDONENoMore]

Yeah, I think once we're clean we start to realize how life works in mysterious ways.  Thank goodness for that clarity right?  And good luck on the house situation - and even if things don't go as planned, don't worry too much about it - as we now know only too well, things happen for a reason.  And at least now we're clear-headed enough to see those reasons and appreciate them.  Good luck to you and see you soon. :)

[justneedtotalk]

Thank you!  I agree, I thought about that because my wife and I have been working on the second child for about 4 months now and nothing.....The minute I am sober...BANG...pregnant!  I am meeting with the bank this morning to see about a house that we found....We would need to sell our house and there are a lot of hoops to jump through but maybe God was just waiting for me to pull my head out of my lower end.  I am not going to be extremely bummed if this house plan does not work, the house we are looking at is pretty expensive and would take us out of our comfort level a bit but we will see.....Thanks for the cudos and hope you are doing well!

[ImDONENoMore]

Congratulations!!!!  What great news!  And how great that you're going to be completely PRESENT for the birth of this child.  This is all good justneedtotalk - and you're heading in the right direction and will be SUCH a great Dad to your new little one as well.  VERY happy for you!  :)  p.s. things happen for a reason don't you agree?  i mean, think about it, you got clean and now there's a baby on the way.  sounds like there was a "divine" plan in place don't you think?  i don't mean anything too religious here - just a spiritual intervention if you will.  interesting... :)