Day 3.. No Vicodin or Soma

[johnsonlock]

Hi, I have been reading these posts since I woke up on Friday morning and decided it was time to be done. I am only 24 years old but my mom gave my my first vicodine ES when I was 16 and coming out of anorexia... been on them ever since, along with soma. I have quit twice (the longest was about 6 months). I started taking 1 of each pill together, then after I quit the 2nd time it was only 1/2 a vic es. with a soma about every 2 hrs (or sooner depending.) My mom and brother are both addicted taking 2-3 of each at a time and are on the fet. patches, butatial as well. I feel so along... I got married in Aug and my hubby (who wont even take asprin) has NO idea. This is part of the reason.. I want a family and kids and dont want to feel like im always hiding something. I am sick of the chase, always having them on me EVERY WHERE and water near by... sneaking them from ALL OUR FRIENDS. I was on them when he met me but since I took only enough to get a head change he could never tell I was on them. So, now I am along (mom and bro still take A LOT, and I pray for them. Maybe I just have to be the first to stop? Third time is a charm... im sick of these damn pills running my life.. I want to be happy! My husband is my rock... he doesn't even know what is going on but being with him puts me at ease. My question is it has been since thurs. night that I took my last dosage, so tonight will be my 3rd night trying to sleep. I take Valerian Root but wake up with anxiety and tossing and turning for over an hour. I don't know how many nights this can last? Does any one know? I deserve to feel like crap for what I have been putting into my body, but just hoping that someone can give me a little insight to what the future holds with this? I remember not being able to sleep last time, but i don't know how long it lasted! I have no one to talk to.. my mom and brother are still on them and don't want to hear that I am quitting- they thing I am trying to be "better then them." I feel a little better writing this and have got so much help from just reading everyone's posts! It would just help to know I am not alone....

[johnsonlock]

Thank you so much for the seeping advice, I am going to try it tonight. I am currently feeling pretty good (which can change in a hearbeat) no anxiety... actually cooked dinner for my husband and I... which I rarely do! (I work with food all day long) I am trying to keep myself occupied. I might sleep on the couch if I wake up in bed tonight. My dose of soma was 1 at a time about 6-7 times a day. Not as much as some people, but I only weigh 107 pounds! Thanks for your advice it means a lot knowing there is someone out there who will talk to me about it! I am going to try to go to bed for the night.. we will see how long I can sleep. Tomorrow is day 4 and I keep telling myself every day that tomorrow is going to be a lot better. Today seemed to be worse then yesterday though for some reason. I will post tomorrow... thank you all for the support... it is helping me more then you could imgine!

[worried878]

what was ur dose of soma before u quit?  soma is usually tapered if high doses r used..and often peeps with a tolerence to soma also have a tolerence to benzos...sleep is important to recovery..phenergan is a safe drug for nausea that also makes peeps sleep..lil pieces like 1/4 can be good in the daytime for anxiety..not addicting and most dr's will call it in for a tummy virus
sounds like u r on ur way to getting this done..good for u...valerian root worked for me to sleep but i also used ambien durring detox which isnt as addicting as benzos but still has a potential for abuse...soma tolerence or addiction would make drugs like ambien a bad choice tho..and it probably would not help u much anyway
Often staying busy during the day, exercising, or just Moving, hot baths at night and being sure u r calm and inactive before u try to sleep//getting ur room cold as u can can also help cos it slows ur metabolism down..bundle up and take off blankets as u need to//I have a windown ac unit in my bedroom and it makes me sleep like a baby plus it drowns out noises that could wake me up during the night.....if u are in the bed tossing and turning it often helps to get up and try again later cos assoxciating restlessness with ur bed can happen to some and ur bed can become a source of stresss vs a place of rest and relaxation
hang tight..u r doing g8!

[johnsonlock]

Thank you... that sounds like a good idea.. using the car to get the emtions out since I have to go to work and be myself in front of everyone else. I have never been so emotional in my life.. and i've been through quite a bit! Soma causes bad anxiety.. I am reading up on it now trying to get some info. I just want to find the person I really am.. the pill free person. I don't even know who that is anymore....  

[dedicatedtostop]

Keep up the great work! You are doing great! Just remember how you never want to go through this again!! Stay strong a stay positive, positive energy goes a long way, you can do this. If you have a fam dr try to give them a call and tell them you are having trouble sleeping. I take an rx called trazadone and it works wonders. Day 15 here and I have never had trouble sleeping, and it non narc. You can do this I know you can!!

[Calamity2]

Yep I know the emotions go through the roof for awhile. But the sleep thing. My guess is you will sleep all night by day 6 but it could be day 5.  I dont know anything about soma
I know I spent alot of time the first 90 days or so crying on and off .  I use time in the car to pick up kids for crying time.  sunglasses ")

[johnsonlock]

Thank you.. I have been clean for 3 days now. I am just wondering how long it is going to take until I can sleep again and don't have this anxiety feeling? I feel good otherwise... clear headed and proud of myself... just alone and emotional! I am not going back to the pills... I got rid of all the ones I had. (about 70) I just want to feel "normal" and be able to sleep! Do you know how long it takes? I read by day 4 you are usually in the clear... that the hardest is over. I am almost there... 1 more day.......

[Calamity2]

We you will get a bunch of people to take to here if you decied to get clean. I know about vics withdrawal but not the other.  You have the chance to get clean if you decied to.  I was addicted to vics for 8 years.  If I can do it so can you.  And HONESTLY the withdrawal monster isn't half as bad as you imagine    I thought I could never stop without being locked up. But once I decieded I got ALOT of support here.