Day 3 Oxy withdrawal

[ctblues]

First time I have ever posted anything. I am on my 3rd day of oxy withdrawal. This is pure hell. Everyone knows the symptoms. I started using morphine in 2000 after an accident crushed my 4th vertibrae, I was on a pump. I learned how to manipulate the pump and after 7 weeks of 1000mg a week, I went ct. Worst days of my life. You think I would have learned from that. I am 53 years old, sober from alcohol 11 years. I started using percocet 10mg a day 1 year ago. I increased the amount and then went to oxy's. first 40mg a day to where I am now...100mg day. I have to pay street price. I decided to quit wednesday, it's friday morning. I just got a call letting me know they were available if I wanted some...I told him to never call me again. The crash isn't worth the high. I figure I am almost over the worst of this, maybe another 2 days max. I did get a visit from an old friend this morning, my first woody in 6 months...very interesting. There is no way I could have posted this the last couple days, I must be getting closer to the end...Unbelievable hell. I know I am doing the right thing, oh man it sure is tough, especially knowing a phone call will end all this...

[ctblues]

I could not have given myself or family a better Christmas present, Merry Christmas ct. 19 days clean. What a rush, just saying that, 19 days clean, I get chills...good chills.

I have been reading posts, some good some not so good...Anyone on the fence, wanting to jump off and get your life back. I can not tell you how good you will feel. I have not felt like this in a long time. I feel light, happy, myself again.

You have to want to be clean.

No more counting pills, no more denial, no more laxatives, The $$ I will save, All the BS...gone, because I had enough and stopped. 19 day, looking back it went pretty fast, I remember the first 4-5 very well...

I am taking my life back on my terms...you can do it too.

I say this not just for you, but it helps me to hear it as well.

Tomorrow I open my Christmas gift to me...20 days.

Merry Christmas everyone.

[ctblues]

Really sorry to hear about your friend.  What she has to do to afford a 380.00/day habit is going to kill her, if the oxy's don't first.

Life doesn't have to be that hard. All you have to do is stop. Yeah, it su cks for the first week, but man what a feeling once you turn the corner. I guess she hasn't had enough yet.

I am on day 18. I wanted to have 20 days in by Christmas. I went bowling with my family last night...bowling?? I had a blast. Laughed naturally.

Life doesn't have to be that hard.

[missfiveday]

I have a friend hooked on oxys, I've seen them take her down, lose custody of her child and lose the trust of her family... She's only 29.  She buys them off the street and spends $380 a day.  She sleeps with the old man that sells them to her when she has no money.  When she tries to quit the pills, she starts drinking heavy... Congrats on the motivation to straighten out... Don't be afraid to take advantage of any help offered.  People will not think of you as a weak addict but rather a strong committed person!!! All the best!!!

[ctblues]

Thanks I appreciate all the kind words and incredible support. ct

[10356]

That is so great ct that you heard her... while we are deep in our addiction that conversation would not have had a impact It would of just been shuffled off to the recess of our minds.. I have been reading your post and I'm glad you stuck around You have a amazing good attitude and this will take you far !! Life clean has it own set of difficulties but for myself I would rather feel them then to feel nothing at all but my own misery and guilt.. Proud and Happy for you !! Your family must be feeling a great deal of relief for you sound like a wonderful man and I'm sure they were missing their poppa for a time.. Congrats on 2 weeks !! Whoo Hooo !! lesa

[Back2Me]

Great to see you are doing so well man! I am better little by little every day. I am not rejuuvinated yet exactly but maybe recesitated :)

Let's keep rolling man you are still one day ahead of me!