Day 3 norco withdrawals

[ABalone]

Hi everyone. I come on here and read everyone's posts all the time, figured it was time to join. I'm 34 and have been on and off painkillers for the last 5 years. It started when I had knee surgery, I would get 35 7.5 Vic's at a time and they would last me a few weeks. Cut to a few years ago, I'm in and out of the er constantly for "back pain" (I broke my back when I was 18, no I never got into the pills then), really just trying to get more pills. About a year ago I found a pain doc, he prescribes me 150 10mg norcos or percs a month. At first they would last a few weeks, I was taking about 8/day. Well now I'm lucky if they last me 1 week, I'm taking 20-25/day. I have forged rxs (added pain pills to another rx), bought illegally, complained of "cough" to my doc to get codeine syrup when I run out of pills. I took my last norco 3 days ago, I really want to quit but I admit its going to be hard when all I can think about is going to my doc for more pills. I have to wait at least 2 weeks until I see him again, hopefully I will be able to be strong. Right now I feel so out of it, these few days have been total hell. I'm so depressed, sad, hopeless, anxious, have no appetite and my whole body aches, I feel like the biggest loser in the world. All I think about are these pills. Right now I've just been smoking lots of pot the last 3 days, taking ambien to help me sleep, taking lots of ibuprofen, energy drinks, water, bananas. I have an rx for soma that I might pick up tonight, but really nothing besides an opiate is going to get rid of this doomed feeling. Thankful to have my loyal dog at my side right now, he forces me to get outside for walks. If anyone out there can offer any support or tips to get through this I would appreciate it. I'm supposed to go back to work tomorrow. I wish I never took that first Vicodin :(

[ABalone]

How long have you been clean? How did you do it? Having a really hard time right now.

[ABalone]

Harsh but true. Right now I just feel so lost and hopeless, I want to quit...but I don't want to quit...what do I do? How do I get out of this cycle? I was feeling better earlier, now I feel like I just want to crawl in a hole and die. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this so much....

[kyle505]

You are an addict and you need to come to grips with that fact. If the only reason you're on this forum looking for help and/or support is because you won't see your doc for another two weeks, then this is all a waste of time - you are just waiting until you get your next script. And using other drugs "smoking lots of pot... taking ambien... have an rx for soma that I might pick up" to help is foolish. You aren't allowing your body to flush the crap out when you keep putting more in.
I'm going to be very blunt with you because after reading your initial post I think that you are in trouble and are heading down a long road of relapse after relapse after relapse. You will continue to harm your body and mind, and as you get older (if you get older) the detox process will get harder.
Stop BSing yourself. Are you really going to stop? If so then there are things that you need to do - hard work that has to be done to insure your recovery. If you're just waiting for the next script then you need to admit that to yourself and consider your future. No one on this site can help you if you have no intention to quit.
K

[ariley13]

You can do this! It may feel like you can't, but you will make it through. Now the question is what will you do once the withdrawls are over. WIll you go right back to your dr. and get more pills? This absolutely is a fork in the road for you. If you are serious about quitting, then you are going to have to tell your secret. Tell your dr so that he/she won't write you any more pills. As strong as we are, there will always be a weak moment where we will cave in if the pills are available. This site is a great place for support, and encouragement. Please stay with us. We are here for you! Congrats on 3 days! I know how rough the wds are. Just remember that you can do this! Take it one day, one hour, or even one minute at a time if you need to. I wish you nothing but the best of luck in your journey to recovery.

[ABalone]

Thank you everyone for the tips and support. Still feeling horrible but I think I can do this...

[OpenMind24hours]

I don't think the Thomas recipe should cost you more than $20 . You don't need large quantities of anything because you should be through with all of the heavy stuff in less than 10 days. Magnesium will help with RLS, and behold the power of hot baths!! You'll be amazed how well they work. Too bad the motel doesn't have a hot tub. That would work great also. You can do this!!