Day Eleven!!!!

[SassySteel]

Hi Everybody!!  Just checking in and giving an update.  Day Eleven here and still clean off Percs.  I'm still fidgety at night and anxious a lot during the day, but I'm feeling a bit more like the old me more and more.  I've struggled with moodiness and unease.  I've been slightly down and melancholy and am attempting to deal with that through running.  It seems the endorphins I release around mile 5 are good for mood elevation and I like to think I'm sweating the residual toxins out of my body.  

It was great being clean for Christmas.  I very much enjoy not fretting about how many pills I have, where I'll get the next ones, how much money I have to purchase them, etc etc.  You all know the drill there.  

I hope you all had a good Christmas and are still kicking strong and making good choices.  I'm definitely living again more than dying now and I'm loving the freedom of being pill free.  I actually had someone offer me pills over the holiday.  I told them I was off and that I'd not be returning to living under the thumb of pills.  I swear I think I saw misery in their eyes...it hurt cause I was hoping they'd be happy for me.  

Point is, I guess misery loves company.  That is fine though, it doesn't have to be my company.  Just for today....and one day at a time.  I'm stronger than I was yesterday and I'm not as strong as I'll be tomorrow.  Love and hugs to you all.  

Sass

[GoPens66]

Congrats!! I just made it 45 days clean from Perc too.  I too feel the same...no more worries!  You should be very proud of yourself for turning them down!  I feel better everyday and you will too!!  Keep us posted!!  

[Innerstrength67]

That's awesome sassy. Congrats on your clean time and that's awesome you turned down the pills and your choosing you!
Keep it up, like you said, one day at a time!
And yes, misery loves company!