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Day TWO of home detox, what next??
I hear so many different stories about how people feel. Yesterday I did Klonopin and Clonidine, today I'm not sure what to do. I've been up and about, (in my jammies!) but muscle weakness and achey today. I hear stories about day 3 and 4 being worse, but could today be the worst it gets? I didn't wean much (o.k., not at all, but I flushed 42 1/2 hydros). What should I expect today and the next 2 days? Some crazy dreams last night, wow.
I so badly want to be off the hydros, and I now know I can NEVER do them again...
I so badly want to be off the hydros, and I now know I can NEVER do them again...
I know it gets said alot but NEVER is a long time.Dont use just for today.Deal with tomorrow when it gets here.
this is the last time, the last time i never want to do this again....i already lost my singing career and my personal training business, thank got i still own 2 businesses and im only 25..ive built everything and done everything in my life with my bare hands and with motivation..
heres my story as short as i could make it...unfortunately when i was 18 i started trying every street drug possible and became the man around here in new york started selling weed and then extasy, the coke then i had everything and that was my life i loved it felt like a king, everyone loved me wanted to be around me and noone would mess with me...what a life huh yeah right even though i sometimes wish i can go back to those days..i was bodybuilding during that time too and was a personal trainer...i went through those 3 years after dropping out of school and started an internet store and training people, i quit my real job so i can just sell...when i was 21, i found my escape from that life, one of my customers gave me a bag full of different prescriptions, he said heres for a change of pace...i took it and when i ate them i was like wow this is only prescriprtion pills, no more hard drugs! i thought that was the best thing that could have happened to me, well i went on for 3 years building and building my addiction when i lost my gf around that time, wich unfortunately i turned her into a drug addict too :( thank god shes ok now...after i lost her i started to get into steriods for my bodybuilding addicition, everything in my life is an addiction and the fact that i lost my fear of needles i went and started shooting oxycontin with a buddy of mine...i know it makes me sick to my stomach my gf now cant understand how i could have ever done that and i cant either at times...well after a year of that me and my friend couldnt get anything at all we tried everything...let me tell you though at this point i lost everything i was living basically on the streets i didnt sell anymore and i had no money at all, that year i was shooting the oxys i had no life, we just drove around, did the oxys and went to find the next dose it was the saddest time of my life and during thise time i was taking xanax as well probably for 2 1/2 years at this point...so back to the day that we couldnt get anything, my friend called everyone tried everything we would have paid anything for one little pill well the only thing he could get was herion and thats when he left to go pick it up and i said no and stayed home...i said i need to get help so i admitted myself to a rehab, but hated it and left after a day and just suffered for 2 months at home, the worst pain ive ever felt these withdrawals now dont compare to quitted xanax, oxys, weed, and ciggarettes at the same time...the xanax withdrawals were the worst they lasted for 2 months bad and then by 6 months i didnt have anxiety from little things and was back to normal...i made it through that hell.....
but now heres the other side to that story...i met a girl about 2 months after cleaning up and she loves vicodins...i didnt think that vicodins were gonna be like shooting oxys, dont ask me why because i really knew but didnt want to believe it...plus we both loved it..that girl was the most beautiful girl but man what a mistake...after that i was hooked again and now 5 years later im here...along the way i tried to quit afew times most of the times i couldnt make it through a week....and 8 months ago when i met my gf that im with now i quit and i made it past the wd's and got past 2 full weeks and thats when we had our first date..that night i decided that ill give myself a reward for being so good and also so im not this guy thats depressed and feeling down i wanted to be me...well now ive been back on taking more then ever and nobody knew about it...well i came clean to my family and her and this is where im at now....i lost my life till now and this will be the biggest step of my life and im ready for it finally im done hiding it i came out and talked about it and now i ready to conquer it...
i built a gym and i hope to start going back to personal training on the side...i cant wait till i can workout again, i actually excited to finally not be lazy and actually do it...i lost my singing career but i can always do something about it...i still have all my songs and recorded tracks i never lost my voice i still have it...and thank god i still have my other 3 businesses that i had my brother run during this time and the internet store i got someone taking care of ....im ready to get ron back and live the life i should have lived not this sick life that nobody knows about...people know me, but they dont know this other side and they probably wouldnt believe me if i told them...
i know some of you might look at me as a junky but i made mistakes and went down the wrong path...along the way i still was able to succeed even though i lost alot, but i feel i can still get it back and become me again, i just gotta beat my biggest opstacle...
i wish you all the best hopefully noone goes down my road, but nows my times to get whatever i can back before its too late....good luck!! and this will be our gift to ourselves for the holidays and for our new years resolution..
_Ron
heres my story as short as i could make it...unfortunately when i was 18 i started trying every street drug possible and became the man around here in new york started selling weed and then extasy, the coke then i had everything and that was my life i loved it felt like a king, everyone loved me wanted to be around me and noone would mess with me...what a life huh yeah right even though i sometimes wish i can go back to those days..i was bodybuilding during that time too and was a personal trainer...i went through those 3 years after dropping out of school and started an internet store and training people, i quit my real job so i can just sell...when i was 21, i found my escape from that life, one of my customers gave me a bag full of different prescriptions, he said heres for a change of pace...i took it and when i ate them i was like wow this is only prescriprtion pills, no more hard drugs! i thought that was the best thing that could have happened to me, well i went on for 3 years building and building my addiction when i lost my gf around that time, wich unfortunately i turned her into a drug addict too :( thank god shes ok now...after i lost her i started to get into steriods for my bodybuilding addicition, everything in my life is an addiction and the fact that i lost my fear of needles i went and started shooting oxycontin with a buddy of mine...i know it makes me sick to my stomach my gf now cant understand how i could have ever done that and i cant either at times...well after a year of that me and my friend couldnt get anything at all we tried everything...let me tell you though at this point i lost everything i was living basically on the streets i didnt sell anymore and i had no money at all, that year i was shooting the oxys i had no life, we just drove around, did the oxys and went to find the next dose it was the saddest time of my life and during thise time i was taking xanax as well probably for 2 1/2 years at this point...so back to the day that we couldnt get anything, my friend called everyone tried everything we would have paid anything for one little pill well the only thing he could get was herion and thats when he left to go pick it up and i said no and stayed home...i said i need to get help so i admitted myself to a rehab, but hated it and left after a day and just suffered for 2 months at home, the worst pain ive ever felt these withdrawals now dont compare to quitted xanax, oxys, weed, and ciggarettes at the same time...the xanax withdrawals were the worst they lasted for 2 months bad and then by 6 months i didnt have anxiety from little things and was back to normal...i made it through that hell.....
but now heres the other side to that story...i met a girl about 2 months after cleaning up and she loves vicodins...i didnt think that vicodins were gonna be like shooting oxys, dont ask me why because i really knew but didnt want to believe it...plus we both loved it..that girl was the most beautiful girl but man what a mistake...after that i was hooked again and now 5 years later im here...along the way i tried to quit afew times most of the times i couldnt make it through a week....and 8 months ago when i met my gf that im with now i quit and i made it past the wd's and got past 2 full weeks and thats when we had our first date..that night i decided that ill give myself a reward for being so good and also so im not this guy thats depressed and feeling down i wanted to be me...well now ive been back on taking more then ever and nobody knew about it...well i came clean to my family and her and this is where im at now....i lost my life till now and this will be the biggest step of my life and im ready for it finally im done hiding it i came out and talked about it and now i ready to conquer it...
i built a gym and i hope to start going back to personal training on the side...i cant wait till i can workout again, i actually excited to finally not be lazy and actually do it...i lost my singing career but i can always do something about it...i still have all my songs and recorded tracks i never lost my voice i still have it...and thank god i still have my other 3 businesses that i had my brother run during this time and the internet store i got someone taking care of ....im ready to get ron back and live the life i should have lived not this sick life that nobody knows about...people know me, but they dont know this other side and they probably wouldnt believe me if i told them...
i know some of you might look at me as a junky but i made mistakes and went down the wrong path...along the way i still was able to succeed even though i lost alot, but i feel i can still get it back and become me again, i just gotta beat my biggest opstacle...
i wish you all the best hopefully noone goes down my road, but nows my times to get whatever i can back before its too late....good luck!! and this will be our gift to ourselves for the holidays and for our new years resolution..
_Ron
I'm thinking of you ronny. this will be different for you this time with all the support. we can choose to never go thru this again. I want this to be my very last 3 day. I hope this is your last w/d time too. You and I both are kinda bingers...on and off.
Let's stay off this time
Let's stay off this time
no im definately withdrawing...you might not have read my original post i actually was addicted to roxicet(oxycodone) 30mg pills anywhere from 270 minumum a day to at 370-400mgs a day i could have gone more for a long time but fought to go past that...i only took the methadone for 3 days to help taper me off the roxicets to make it easier but i decided yesterdays last dose of 10mgs was my last, my body never got addicted to the methadone im withdrawing from the roxicet...10mgs of methadone only masked very little of my withdrawals so thats why i still felt withdrawals while i was on it its been 24 hours since i took that methadone and im starting to really feel the wd's..
thank you lisa, dont worry i know all about that my withdrawal is usually pretty bad unfortunately ive been through this far too many times but relapsed everytime before this. this time i have support and family and my gf to help me so this time around i got what i didnt have that i needed before...
thank you lisa, dont worry i know all about that my withdrawal is usually pretty bad unfortunately ive been through this far too many times but relapsed everytime before this. this time i have support and family and my gf to help me so this time around i got what i didnt have that i needed before...
You are absolutely right about day two being the worst.... I woke up feeling GREAT, but it went down hill from there. It got bad... REALLY bad.
Day three, however is much better for me. I hope it is the same for you.
You are in my thoughts, chica.
Day three, however is much better for me. I hope it is the same for you.
You are in my thoughts, chica.
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