Just a few questions regarding Hydrocodone, Percocet, etc withdrawals

[JeremyS07]

Hey all,  I'm knew to this forum and I'm sure there are a other posts that have answers so I apologize in advance.  A little background, I am 23 years old right now and I started taking hydrocodone about 3 years ago.  Honestly, I started taking them because I had/have, what I think is the most embarrasing condition known to man, premature ejaculation. =/ I have never told anyone that (not even my doctor.) I was prescribed some hydrocodone because of an injury i sustained from fighting (MMA/cage fighting..not on the street or in a bar lol)  When I started taking them I realized how much they helped with the premature ejaculation and how I could now last as long as I wanted and I was so much better in sex and how confident I had become.  (Previously I did not date anyone for over a year due to the condition.)  Anyway, I started taking them regularly for that sole reason, well I enjoyed the high also.  So after time went on, obviously my tolerance started going up and I started using them more recreationally.  That's how I became an addict.  When I could not get them from my doctor, I would do as everyone else on here (im sure) would do and go to the streets.  Eventually my life was spinning out of control due to the pain killers.  there was a month where we broke up, so I started doing oxycontin (before the ops) and roxy 30s...Oh my god the original OC's....I couldnt get enough of them, I bought over 40 OC 15's..they were gone within 2 days.  I was spending so much money (that I really didnt have) to get them.  Snorting and smoking the oc's and roxy's were the one thing i needed and loved in my life.  We got back together but i could not slow down at all, It was destroying me..eventually I was doing opana and heroin (Although I have never shot up in my life, I have a needle phobia..which I am SO grateful for, cuz I know for a fact I would have started banging everything, just like all my friends I was with...I'm sure I would have killed myself.) It's a scary thought looking back.  To speed up to the ending...on June 30th of 2011 my daughter was born...she is the most beautiful little girl.  I love her to death...but not even her could stop me from using (although at this time I was just back on hydros, percs, and low mg OPs) At the hospital I remember taking 10 of the 10/650mg hydros (the big blue boys.)  I never let my girlfriend know about my addiction and how bad it was, though I tried hinting it to her many times. Eventually, I became such a worthless person...I turned professional in MMA and started off 3-1...that was around the time we broke up for a month or two.  That's when I got bad into the oxy, opana, heroin, cocaine, and meth also.  I was not training like I used to or how a Professional should train...I would train the week leading up to the fight and that's it.  After losing 2 in a row and being 3-3 I decided I was going to put a hiatus on my fighting career until I could get off the ddrugs...my last fight was november 2010.  I never quit the drugs, I tried to have a fight in May of 2011 before my daughter was born but I was still partying and using.  I tried to cut from 207lbs to 170 in a 2 day period...In the last 12 hours before weigh ins I dropped 25lbs...I did not make weight (178) and my kidneys started shutting down and I ended having to go to the hospital to get IVs so i would not die...i came very close.  Since then I have barely trained as I have been doing drugs.  As I stated I was becoming a worthless person, was not looking for a job to support my g/f and my daughter, I was too busy wondering how I was going to get my next fix...I HATE that mindset.  I knew I had to do something about my life but i just couldnt.  She broke up with me because I was not being the right person I should be.  That sucked so bad...it still does...thinking of what could have been if I was not such a p.o.s. b/f and person.  Many sleepless nights...from stress and drugs.  I got bad after we broke up..started using meth a lot too and was up for 5 days recently.  Such a low point in my life.  I knew for years that I needed to change and get my sh*t together.  But I couldnt.  I could not understand how I could cut weight in wrestling (14 years, 500 matches) and fighting (38 fights) and have such great will power to always make weight (except that 1 damn time.) but I could not get myself to fight through the withdrawals...It took too much out of me, made me the weakest I have ever felt, cried so many times just cuz one of my dealers couldnt get any pills or had a deal fall through.  To get to the ending so I'm not boring you all, My mother knew I was addicted to them cuz she would catch me taking her pills from her and how much money would disappear from my account.  I was stealing things, selling them for cash, or writing checks to myself from my brothres account to pay for the drugs.  How have I came to this point i thought...I was running wild because my parents and sister had moved down here to louisiana from nebraska a year ago and I had no family up there besides my daughter and my brother, so after my g/f broke up with me I cut loose, I wanted to just die but i couldnt cuz i couldnt do that to my family and my daughter.  last month my mother told me I was to come down here and get my life together.  I'm grateful my parents and family are so supportive for me.  But that does not make this any easier.  Before I came down here (I left last friday) I was down to doing anywhere from 50-100mg (sometimes more) of hydrocodone.  I knew I was going to go thru the w/d so I tried tapering down.  Last wednesday I had 75mg, thurs, 50mg, then friday i had 40mg...saturday I had nothing and started goin thru the w/d..sunday nothing..then monday when we got down here to my parents house I was in the terrible part of the w/d, no sleep, restless legs, runs, you all know. I was searching the house for any kind of prescriptions that would help take the edge off, couldnt find any, so I searched all over my car...like literally everywhere and by God's miracle i found 1 10mg hydro so I snorted half and ate the other half (have no self control, was gonna try to save some haha yea right.)  So at this point, I have been pretty much 6 days clean of opiates (besides that 10mg to help ease the pain for a few hours.)  I feel a lot better, my parents have noticed a definite change my attitude also.  

So I'm sorry for the looooong freaking post ha.  But here are my questions.  At this point, (just about a week) being clean from opiates.  I'm feeling better but I'm not so naive to think it's over with.  I still have lethargy a bit, some headaches, and just a tired and sore body like i have gone through a full 2 hour kick boxing or mma training session.  So my questions are as follow...

---What are the next steps in the withdrawal?  like the physical part is just about over (the worse anyway) but when will the depression set in more than it is now?  What else should i be weary of and worry about in the next few weeks of detoxing/recovery?
---Also, as I have stated my embarrasing premature ejaculation.  What medications/prescriptions or whatever can I take for that?  I don't want to have to try and take pain killers everytime I have sex just for me to start right back into them.  I really dont' want to go to a doctor for it, but if that is my only option then i might just have to.  

Again, I apologize for the long story and everything, just wanted you to get  a grasp of the situation of why I got suckered into these damn pills and get an answer for the PE.

Thanks for your time,
Jeremy

[Brightfutureahead]

Great story..,I'm sure we all can relate to so many parts of it. I know I can...great job hanging in there thru the hard part!

[vicki595]

The next stage of wd's will be the mental part. The cravings and the "whispers".  Recovery is lifelong so you need to change your thinking,your friends,your habits, everything.  Aftercare of some sort is recommended whether its AA, or a therapist/doctor, group, counselor, etc... I'm sure the physical part is over now.

Do some research about PE. There are several exercises you can try so just do some reading on the subject.