Desperate and ashamed

[ChillyDanger]

Been taking Percocet for years. Started out with a couple here and there for fun. 10 years later they are ruining my life. They do not make me happy. I was a functioning addict for 9 years but now I am starting to mess up. My job and my family and wife are suffering because of me. I want off so bad brut I am so scared of the withdrawal symptoms and the embarrassment of telling everyone. My wife know and my dad and sister but that's it. Everyone else just thinks I'm depressed and sick. I went two days without and the feelin was unbearable. I guess I'm a wimp but I felt terrible. Shakes. Nausea. No appetite. Grouchy. Crying and the taste in my mouth is awful. I went back. I take 50 perks a day. I am so ashamed of myself. I am letting everyone down. I feel so alone and scared. These drugs rule my life. All I do is worry about when they are coming next. I put them in front of everything else. Family friends work my health. They are always on my mind. I never sleep. I have sat outside of the detox centre crying but can't go in. I have not lost everything yet but feel it is going start soon. Not sure why I am posting this but I am anyway. Not asking for help from you strangers but felt like writing it down might help. Thanks for listening

[onthefence]

"Man (and Women too)is what he thinks about" was a quote i seen and i think its true, if you keep thinking about a life without the bondage of drugs, then you will make it happen.
the comfort from drugs will get harder and harder to achieve the longer you use, and once you go thru the discomfort of detox you will have the comfort you were seeking without the drugs, its all a process.

[ChillyDanger]

Ok. Of your sure. I don't want to be the only one here not making progress. Being here is helping. Your words advice and experience is amazing. I'll just keep reading and letting you know what's going on I guess. If I wear out my welcome let me know.

[onthefence]

hang in there. Its a process, you just need to take the next step :)

[refills]

Hey chilly. Listen, you're thinking about it. That's a start. Don't go away just yet. Keep posting, we will wait on you. We just don't support the active addicts who are detoxing or other. We support everyone who needs supporting. Which is everyone. I can only offer support and a little advice from time to time as I'm just getting better myself. Heck, it's not easy. It's also  not easy using. That takes a lot of work. So let's hear from you and we will be right here waiting. This could be the biggest thing in your entire life. Take great care chilly....ike

[ChillyDanger]

Sorry to waste your time. I didn't go. I tried but chickened out. Try again next week I hope. I'll post again when I actually do something. Thanks for your support. Obviously not deserved. Take care

[Krissy_123]

I'm really praying the reason we haven't heard from you yet is because you got in the detox centre. Either way I hope you come back and keep us posted on your progress ❤️❤️