Detoxing, dealing with setbacks...........help!!!!

[OxyDout]

Hey guys, I had a minor set back over the holidays, I took 40mg of oxycontin last night, the good news is, I felt awful(mentally), I was so upset at myself.  I was with my girlfriend and I was so mad that I I felt like I needed to get fu... up to be there.  I completely regret it, It was just another sign that I know I'm done with these things.  It was weird, it was like I was an addict all over again, like I had to depend on going to get some before I saw her, WHAT AN AWFUL FEELING, I can't tell you guys how incredible it is to be able to do what you want whenever you want  Anyway, I have restless leg today and I have to work, but I can make it through, I know I can, my question is, how long do you think I will feel this restless leg?? I don't know if I have any other wd symptoms cause I have bronchitis and an ear infection so I'm very out of it. Well, I have to get going, but this was just a minor setback, I don't want anyone to think that I"m going back to using because I"m not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope all is well, keep your head up!!

gwh

[Telby]

First day of detox, woke up and got hit with sickness big time. I amd determined to do it this time, I have no benzo's or other meds so it's the real deal.  Got one whole day behind me - my second day is always very hard so send me good thoughts the next 24 hours. I'm not letting myself be afraid, I am fearless.  love telby

[hjp]

You are invincible! Keep goin Telby,, send me some of your pain. your friend, hjp

[Telby]

Today was awful, my second and third days are always the worst. I had dry heaves all day which I have not had before.  The withdrawals get worse every time which is what I need to remember. I am still hanging in there, taking my vitamins and keeping my mind from wandering into dangerous territory. I am very sick but very determined to see his through and get my life back.  Your the best hjp and I thank you for your help, love, telby

[hjp]

telby, where are you"?  waiting to hear.......hjp

[Telby]

Alright flattery will get you anything with me.  I will first finally go to bed and shoot for a good night sleep and then I will pick myself up and try this again. Just think how impossible I'll be if I ever do succeed?  I'll really be telling everyone what they should do. Really, thank you for the attention it is just what i needed tonight.  It ain't over til its over and there seems to be no easy or soft way to get there. love, Telby

[hjp]

come on telby, you're my hero.  I've read everything you've written on this site. You're a smart girl, and a logical thinker, so figure out a detox method that'll work for you.  Make it complicated if you have to, just follow it.   Question is when you're sober where are you?  Lots of pain?  Bad marriage? Bad job...What is it?  Stay tough....we're all praying for you.      hjp