I have been taking percocet for about 2 years now, it started off as doing a 5mg every now and then for fun, then i started snorting them, because i found it didnt upset my stomach that way,..after a few months of doing this "just for fun" and every now and then;; a trumatic event took place in my life, which lead me to doing them every day just to get thru the day, i was never prescribed them, always got them off the street, after doing 5mgs for about 6 months, i thought i was addicted, when i didnt have them, my back would hurt slightly or my head would hurt, but i had no idea what i was really in for., before i knew it was doing 10mgs., then 15s, and finally 30s. i took all of 3 months to find out what real withdrawing was all about.
I'm at the point now where i am disgusted with myself, spending my entire check on it just to make sure i make it thru the week, the crazy part is, its not even about getting high anymore (although, its a bonus) its about just not feeling like ****.
I cant say ive tried to go cold turkey (atleast not willingly) but there has been times i havnt had, and the withdraw was UNBAREABLE. the cold sweats and aches and pains are one thing, but once its time for sleep FORGET IT, i toss and turn and cant stay still, restless leg is a HUGE issue for me, it gets to the point where i give up completly, by the next day im so desperate i usually call every single person i know until i find one,
...In conclusion i am so done having to wake up every day and beg and plead my way to one just to not feel like complete ****.
..So my question is if anyone knows a way to tapper down? I've read alot of posts on this where people say they do crazy amounts, i do probably 1-2 a day ,mostly because thats all i can afford, as they are in no way cheap. the LEAST amount i can do is 1 a day, (one in the morning & one at night) I've tried doing only a half a day, and by the end of the night im withdrawing already.) If anyone knows a good way to cut down it would be GREAT. ,going cold turkey is just NOT an option, theres no way i'll quit that way, i know i would give into the pain.
Rehab, also not an option. and i've heard HORRIBLE things of suboxon, i know many people who have done it, and really all it has done for them is switched their addiction from one thing to another,
any help is greatly Appreciated. thank you.