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Another rant from yours truly...
This completely blows....you all know this, but I need to say it. I'm a total $&@?!$@ mess....I haven't taken a normal shower to wash myself since Friday....I haven't left the house since Friday. Any energy I have goes towards taking care of the kids, and after that there is just nothing left. I've been soaking in the tub quite a bit, so I'm not completely gross...but with all of the sweating I've been doing between last night and this morning, I'm going to hAVE to shower today. I'm running low on milk for the kids....I'm having extreme anxiety over this, because it means I'm gonna have to get the kids around, get myself somewhat around, get in the car....drive to the store....ahhhhhh! I'm seriously freaking out about this??? WTF is wrong with me?? There is a drive through grocery place in town....I've never been to it, but I think there is a first time for everything LOL! I'm actually gonna go to the drive through grocery place?? Wtf. It's almost been a year since I quit smoking cigarettes....I'd rather go through nicotine withdrawal 20 times in a row, than go through this once....anyways, I'm so tempted to smoke right now. I won't but I'm tempted. It's all freezing rain, ice, snow outside...and super cold...so I haven't even really stepped outside in 3 days either. Things have GOT to be looking up soon. I'm already dreading bedtime tonight, and it's only noon right now. I have no idea how I'm going to get through his afternoon. Ugggghhh thanks for listening, it helps me so much just to get all of this $h!t out there!!!
Good morning Jenny, I hope you got some rest, and are ready to face this day! I'm hoping today will be better for you. Make sure you get yourself outside today. It will really help. Let us know how you are doing!
It sounds like you are almost over the hump of the physical symptoms; you should be feeling better soon.
I know how hard it is to do it with kiddos; I have a very demanding 8 year old so I feel your pain. Don't try to be supermom right now; do what you absolutely have to and let the rest of it wait. You are making a positive change in your life that will greatly benefit your kids; they will be fine if you do the minimum in order to take care of you. The Epsom salt baths helped so much with the aches and pains; I didn't try them the first 5 days and regretted it later.
You are so strong and I'm proud of you. Hang in there; you can do it!!
I know how hard it is to do it with kiddos; I have a very demanding 8 year old so I feel your pain. Don't try to be supermom right now; do what you absolutely have to and let the rest of it wait. You are making a positive change in your life that will greatly benefit your kids; they will be fine if you do the minimum in order to take care of you. The Epsom salt baths helped so much with the aches and pains; I didn't try them the first 5 days and regretted it later.
You are so strong and I'm proud of you. Hang in there; you can do it!!
PS- Cookies and chocolate really helped me!! Yummy!!
Jenny-Day 3- Rosey is right on. You are in the thick of it right now. I know I didn't shower, took Epsom salt baths..they really helped my body calm down and helped with the wanting to jump out of your skin! My whole body was jumping. But...keep pushing through. It will get better. I promise. I was taking oxi's/trams/vicodin all day long for 3 years. So I feel your pain. Keep going, we are all here to help you. We've all gone through it. And it does end. Keep posting and let us know how you are coming along.
Thank you so much for the encouraging post!! I certainly don't feel like I'm doing great...LOL I have to do this...I just have to. I really am scared that I won't be happy ever again, and that I won't be able to get my butt off the couch ever again. Hopefully this isn't the case!
Seriously...the lack of energy thing is BAD. But I have anxiety, where I feel all amped up but with no physical energy to do anything about it. It's an awful feeling!
Thanks for your post....you hang in there too!!! Hugs to you!!
Thank you so much! I'm doing what I can...which isn't much, I've been up since 3:30 I'm sooooo exhausted but just can't sleep :(
Sorry...but I totally don't feel like Betty Crocker at the current moment! LOL!! :) thanks for the support!
Jenny Ive been reading ur thread/s and I think you are doing great! you seem very strong, and seems like you have a good attitude despite the hard parts! You can do this! I know you will persevere. You _will_ feel happy again ... I remember feeling very down about that in the beginning of detox. I also remember the lack of energy ... wow the going to get groceries thing sounded horrible!! I know I couldn't have done that in early recovery. And ice and snow ... poor you! Sorry you are going through all of this. And again, you're doing a super job!
The lack of energy shocked me. I wasn't prepared for it at all. I couldn't lift my arms to wash my hair.
Keep trying to put healthy things in your body and I know, you are going to hate this because I sure did when people said it to me, FORCE yourself to get some fresh air. It really does help and it feels so good.
Good luck and hopefully you feel better tomorrow. Well at least a little better.
Keep trying to put healthy things in your body and I know, you are going to hate this because I sure did when people said it to me, FORCE yourself to get some fresh air. It really does help and it feels so good.
Good luck and hopefully you feel better tomorrow. Well at least a little better.
Don't worry Wholly that crying thing passes! Then comes the manic into anger into depression roller coaster rides! Put on your seatbelt! The good news is the manic days are really fun!
Hey Jenny I understand your sentiment on icing...nfw. Good stuff...just go & start up the car 10-15 before you plan to leave.
Tiger - I'm with you on mental stuff. The most intriguing one I have, besides a little depression is "emotional". My God I see anything slightly sad I shed a tear...it's the weirdest damn thing. I was NEVER like this before, or during the hydro.
Tiger - I'm with you on mental stuff. The most intriguing one I have, besides a little depression is "emotional". My God I see anything slightly sad I shed a tear...it's the weirdest damn thing. I was NEVER like this before, or during the hydro.
Oh honey I'm kinda where you are, I've been really trying to get clean this last months, and I've done ok, I haven't taken my doc. Since November 10, but I slipped and did a few other things mostly to try to stop the wd!! I also am a mom of two, but I'm a single mom. And today is really only day 2 since I have taken anything at all, except medications I'm prescribed by my therapist. I've done this before sadly...and yes, the first few day, 4 or 5, will be hard physically. But then you will turn a corner and start to feel better! But, then the mental stuff will start, all kinds of things you have numbed for so long on pills will come up, you will just feel all kinds of emotions once your not numbed, so you have to have s plan to do something about that and have some kind of aftercare and support in place to stay clean!
While you are going through the worst of the physical wd. There are some things you can do. There is a Thomas recipe here on this site that had a complete plan for at home detox.
You can take Tylenol or Advil for pain. Imodium Is a good thing to stop bathroom issues. Hot baths with Epsom salt will help the aches and pains. And draw the poison out. Make sure you atleast take a multivitamin every day, and possibly more supplements and minerals...
I already see a therapist and psychiatrist regularly and some of the antidepressants and anxiety medicines they have given me really helped me. But I have different issues, so maybe you could see your dr??? They understand more than you think!
Anyway, I wish you the best of luck and send prayers and good thoughts your way!
You will have many awesome supportive people here!!
And maybe try a na or aa meeting. I'm going to try to start doing that this week.
And if your spiritual then Pray! And maybe even get into a good church! I'll be going back to my church this week too!
Sending prayers peace love good thoughts your way!
While you are going through the worst of the physical wd. There are some things you can do. There is a Thomas recipe here on this site that had a complete plan for at home detox.
You can take Tylenol or Advil for pain. Imodium Is a good thing to stop bathroom issues. Hot baths with Epsom salt will help the aches and pains. And draw the poison out. Make sure you atleast take a multivitamin every day, and possibly more supplements and minerals...
I already see a therapist and psychiatrist regularly and some of the antidepressants and anxiety medicines they have given me really helped me. But I have different issues, so maybe you could see your dr??? They understand more than you think!
Anyway, I wish you the best of luck and send prayers and good thoughts your way!
You will have many awesome supportive people here!!
And maybe try a na or aa meeting. I'm going to try to start doing that this week.
And if your spiritual then Pray! And maybe even get into a good church! I'll be going back to my church this week too!
Sending prayers peace love good thoughts your way!
Hi Jenny! Hang in there woman! You're going to have a breakthrough soon! You over the hump! Couple more days! I can so relate to how you're feeling and YOU WILL BE HAPPY AGAIN! Take it easy, do what you can and don't worry about what's not getting done. The hard work of the last 4 days is way enough! It's the most IMPORTANT thing. So proud of you!
What happened? It posted my old post. Sorry... I have magic powers. Go Jenny Go!
Jenny, try shoveling the ice and perhaps bake some Christmas cookies. That would help. JK. I can feel your pain and frustrations... for most day 3 is the worst and than the days get better. So... hang in there. Stop looking at the clock. We all understand what you are going through... we are all here for you!!!
Those cookies will make everything better. It will be okay... certain that most of the ice/snow will melt over the night. Need not to worry about the small stuff. You are doing great. Continue to think positive thoughts :)
Thanks...and yes, I finally got the socks!! LOL! Then I broke out in a stupid sweat 5 mins later and had to take them off again haha go figure! I am really having a difficult time right now...sigh...thanks for your support :)
Deep breaths! In and out, in and out.... You can do this. The day is almost over. You will feel better when you get out tomorrow. I know it's cold, but the fresh air will do you a world of good. Dig deep, Jenny. There is a light at the end of this tunnel and you will be seeing it soon!
Did you get those darn socks, yet??
Did you get those darn socks, yet??
Omfg....LOL!!!! Shoveling ice??? F that!!! LOL! I'm actually having anxiety over taking my son to daycare in the morning because the car is covered with ice and snow and I'm like omfg what the hell am I supposed to do about that???? I seriously haven't left the house since Friday. I HOPE tomorrow is better because being like this is NOT doable. I'm going nuts right now because my 15 month old daughter keeps crying and I can't figure out what the problem is...and I'm just so extremely wiped out. Thanks for being here for me! :)
Jenny, try shoveling the ice and perhaps bake some Christmas cookies. That would help. JK. I can feel your pain and frustrations... for most day 3 is the worst and than the days get better. So... hang in there. Stop looking at the clock. We all understand what you are going through... we are all here for you!!!
Thanks for making me laugh! I can totally relate to the book thing...my 4 year old was like that last night and all I could think of was just how many books I COULD read to him if I had a bunch of stupid pills. This blows.
I remember my day 3...it sounded like your first post. Im on day 9 now & it gets better...trust me. I remember trying to get my 3 & 5 yr olds i bed & they wanted to read 800 books and i wanted 800 pills.
It gets better...keep up the fight Jenny...you can do this.
It gets better...keep up the fight Jenny...you can do this.
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