Going Cold Turkey!

[totalicsworks]

Hi everyone,
This is my first time posting. I wanted to start off with a little history. In jan off 99 I was hurt at work, had my first surgery in 2003 and 5th surgery feb of this year. I have been in pain management since 2003, been on just about every prescription pain med out there. I currently take roxi 15s and kadian 20s and soma which is a big step down from the fentenyl patches and actiq pops I was on before.
Like I said, im in pain management and it has gotten so bad I eat my entire script in about 2 weeks and then buy 30mg kadians to try and get me thru till my next appointment. I usually save a few roxis just to be safe incase they decide to urine test me.
Anyway, I am in pain, bad pain! But I also admit I love how these pills make me feel.
I want to get off these for good and im trying to mentally prepare myself because I am starting cold turkey tomorrow and don't have any one for support and I will be doing this alone at home. I dont work because I am on disability and workers comp.
I'm trying to figure out how to accomplish this and still go to therapy twice a week and live life.
What makes this tough is I have a legit need for the meds but go freakin crazy when I get them, I guess this is how I got here in the first place......

[Sonrissa]

Hang in there! Can you soak in the tub? Epsom Salt baths will help relax you. Take some deep breaths. You are doing great! Don't give up now. Keep posting, we will get you through this.  Hugs!

[totalicsworks]

Thinking about going, this is getting ridiculous

[jifmoc]

For now, I know this sounds dumb, but can you breathe into a brown paper bag? Not kidding. Also, make sure you are watching movies. And listening to your fave music. And no caffeine!! And lots of water. More water than you can stand. Flush out all the sh!t.

Let us know if you go get the clonidine. Great job! Great 'tude:)

[totalicsworks]

I took a bunch of hot showers today and they do help a bit, I'm just going crazy with this anxiety and muscle spasms, I feel like I want to punch holes in the wall its soo bad, I'm grumpy but trying to be nice to those around me which is tough. I dont think I said ten words all day.
I will beat this I just need something to calm me down

[jifmoc]

Hi, what you are experiencing is totally normal. I know it blows! Have you sat in a VERY hot bath yet? Some folks live in the bath while detoxing. Or the shower.

Getting Clonidine isn't drug-seeking so, if you need it, go get it. It will help all the symptoms calm down a bit. But you'll still be weak etc for a while unfortunately. But, it will pass and the wd's will be over!!! Yay! You don't ever ever have to do this again. Just stick w/ what you are doing and let yourself get better.

Yeah, you can try Valerian. It may help a bit. It just depends on you because all of us have different reactions to stuff during detox. Can't hurt.

Good job!

[totalicsworks]

Man this *****! I cant get comfortable no matter what position I sit or lay in. My back is just constantly in spasm. I have soma and I'm taking that but it doesnt help. Also I'm really full of anxiety, can anyone tell me if valarian root works for anxiety or is there somethin better out there?
I'm at the point that id go to the emergency room to try and get some clonidine but would probably get labeled a drug seeker and sent home in no better shape than im in now.....