iv been an addict for 15yrs now. Iv tried inpatient detox but to no avail. thing is iv been kept on meds longer than iv been usin drugs. Im on 58ml of meth reduced from 80ml. Iv never been able to get any lower that 30ml. Iv now had more than I can take, all my 20's livin this ****** life, now half my 30's hav gone & im petrified i'l b sayin da same come my mid 40/50's. Iv 3 kids, 1 went into care at the age of 4 coz I couldn't get clean & wud no longer subject her to my chaotic life style. My youngest are 6yrs. I started when my eldest was 2. through out my pregnancy wit my twins I didn't use, I didn't want to, didn't crave to. even though I spent about 4 months constantly throwin up, a reason that drives me to definitely use now. I jus seemed so strong. the thought of harming my unborn really put me off. however the sickening thing is they haven't put me off using now!!! im looking into a better form of detox than that of an impatient NHS one. detox 5 where they put u to sleep, then theres this ibogaine.