Crazy Drug Dreams?/ Mental hold long after w/d's

[jfreema81]

Has anyone else had vivid, crazy dreams about your DOC while in withdrawal? During the pitiful 1-2 hours of sleep I get, I am dreaming about every narcotic imaginable. I had a dream about the Actiq lozenges I havent taken for 3.5 years and I woke up with the taste in my mouth! Although my physical w/d's arent nearly as bad as other times, the mental part has never screwed with me this much. I keep counting the days until I go back to the doctor where I know I will get more meds. But if I get them (and I have legitimate pain) I will use way more than necessary because I really don't hurt that bad without them right now. But that little devil voice in my head says that I will feel so much better with them. But I won't because it has been forever since they actually got me high. Uggh I am so mad right now! I have 2 amazing toddlers and they are getting old enough to figure out Mommy is a screw-up. Sorry for the rant, but I just got this surge of anger and frustration. Thought it would be better to let it out than hold it in...that's what got me here in the first place

[Dieing2Live]

yea ive woke up before with drips from pills. i cant smell money without thinking of pills now

[gizzy32]

when i first got off the blow, i had nightmares about using and i'd wake up feeling high, my nose twitching, it freaked the hell out of me. i had some since where in my dream i had it in my hand and tossed it, still freaks me out though.

[Mikeinthesouth]

There is Opi. What happened is we are all chasing Rudolph with his nose so bright. I hate when that happens.

[Dieing2Live]

my worst was my whole 2 hours of sleep i was searching for pills. i found em and i woke up with my hand out waiting for the guy to drop them in my hand. needless to say i think that was my worst day ive had.

[opi]

i have serious broken head when i sleep...i dream of dope,dogs.parents..things i never dream of,,,i've woken up crying like a baby!...i do not remember dreams being so real,,it is scary sometimes,,,yesterday i had a dream that my dog was chasing deer,in my dream i knew we put the dog down and it did not make sense but i watched her chase them anyway,,,the very strange part is one of the deer had a wierd red LED light glowing like a headlight while it ran...when i woke up and tried putting it together i realized that my dog might have been chasing rudolph..(i cried for like 10 minutes after that one...dono why but did)..now that is messed up..every night i have some strange dream like that...several sometimes...i wake up  in a pannick or something every night..i'm glad it is not just me...sorry but i am..what the hell happened to us?!!

[MizDemeanor]

Oh man, I have those dreams too. Oddly enough, my dreams have always been more "feeling" than "movie" type dreams. (all my life) Since getting off the percs and vics, I have dreams where Im doing things to get pills OR I'm running away from them LOL. These dreams are like technicolor movies. I dreamed recently I was tearing though my MOTHERS cabinets looking for her vics. Woke up feeling like ****. I never found them, so maybe that was for the best. Cripes.
I agree with my buddy NewMgt, I never get "high" in the dreams ....too bad it doesnt work that way...oopps, no guess its a GOOD thing LOL
Hang in there, you are doing the right thing, especially for your kids. Read my profile sometime if you want to see a story about what a parent doing drugs can do to a kid.
Peace~

[newmanagment]

you will never actually get to use drugs in these dreams!! you will always wake up b4 ya actually get "high".... why, because in real time your brain and body do know that there is not a chemical there to produce the high.. weird , but this is wut an expert told me..

[corey411]

I'm back on day 1 after 6 days clean and one of those  d@@m dreams after effects were there when I woke up day 6. I dreampt I found a bunch of pills and it was very vivid. They were 20 mg oxys and I remember feeling the texture of the pill. I woke up before I got to take it. I relate it to a sex dream...you know you wake up too early. Too bad we can't vibrate our brain.LOL. The feeling from the dream will go away. Unfortunatly I still ended up usin that day. Would you believe I found oxys too? Lots of luck, Corey

[newmanagment]

alwayz remember , even after a year of sobriety , we are still addicts. seems every time i make a year, i think i can handle a lil bit !! yeah right, im an addict thru and thru!! seems the only thing that works to wake me up is a slap in the face , or a foot to the a$$!! so i pass that along outta love!!!  if ya think the celebrex will work, do it.. dont think ya are ever gonna be in control of your addiction!! the first step is to admit your powerless over it, forever!!  so ya are gonna make it, cuz your thinkin now that this is do-able arentcha?!?!  go to the doc, get  the celebrex, and we will support ya thru everything ya can throw at us!! comon, dontcha wanna take back control of life, for your sake, and consequently the sake of your kids..... i KNOW ya do, so lets do this :)   much love

[avisg]

YES ohhhhhh i used to have alot of them  they will go away with time .they used to drive me crazy .I have them few and far between now .......
avis

[jfreema81]

Thanks for the response. I have read alot of your posts and I appreciate the straight forward approach you have. You are right about managing the pain. I think I tricked myself into believing it was worse than it was just so I had a reason to start the pills again, after almost a year of sobriety. I got lazy and thought I was better then it snuck up on me out of frickin nowhere. It is amazing how obvious my stupid choices are when I am sober. I really think that the Celebrex I should be taking could do the job just fine. Thanks again, it always helps to hear what you know to be truth that you just cant face.

[usarmymedic1]

I still have my dreams about the war and my deployments at 45 days off did not have then on the pain meds so it is either the meds suprresed them or it is causeing them now.

[poetrygirl1960]

When people told me the mental was worse than the physical I thought "no way" but it's absolutely true.  Oh yes, I have technicolor dreams about drugs.  Usually that I am either running low on them or looking for them, which kind of worries me because why would I dream that?  But, it was a huge part of our lives for a long time and even though we are getting it out of our blood so to speak, old mind frames die slower.

[Mikeinthesouth]

Now them well had some last night but these will pass as the wds subside after a few days well 2 weeks of a few days. The dreams are vivid

[newmanagment]

most of my fellow cocaine addicts call em crack dreams. i believe it is our doc workin on our subconsience tryin to get us to wake up with a craving so maybe we will use again. course im no shrink , just the way i feel bout em.  and it may be time for you to try to find other wayz to manage your pain, since the pills have such a grip on ya. there are other options, may want to check em out. sounds like ya really want to just stop, and recovery will happen when the will to be sober outweighs the will to use drugs. i have babies too, and my boy is gettin well old enough to know if daddy doesnt answer the cell. or come home, i am prolly out "doing my bad thing", so i know how ya feel. why not just quit the dope, and take back control of your life? best of luck on your journey, n much love.....