Help with ADDERALL please........

[adam252]

Im 26 and have been taking adderall for a couple years. I get 60 pills a month.  Im suppose to take 2 10mg pills a day every month I get my prescription and I take them all over a course of 1 week. Ive always had depression problems and major anxiety. I dont have adhd problems, I think its a combo of depression and anxiety. When I take them for that week it seems to get rid of my problems, but also kills my senses and emotions. It puts my mind into zombie mode and I feel like a ghost. I want to stop taking these because I become very distant and selfish towards family and friends when im on these pills. The other 3 weeks i dont take them of the month, my depression and anxiety start to build back up. By the time the first of the month gets here im so emotionally tired that i keep getting refills and repeating the same thing over. I know im taking them the wrong way, it just helps to release all my troubles. I want to quit, but its the only thing ive found that helps blow off that steam every month from depression and anxiety. Even if it helps only for 1 week of the month, thats better than nothing. I dont consider my self a junky because im not out buying it when i dont have it. If theres anyone out there with similar problems or someone that has some advice for me, i hope to here a reply from you. I would appreciate the help, Thanks.

[Cissy373]

I don't know anything about adderall as I am addicted to Hydros but your story is exactly like mine only a different DOC.

I don't buy off the streets either  but that being said it makes me NO less an ADDICT.

Can you talk to your Doctor?

Stay on this forum as many will help you, this forum has been a God send to me, when I was at my lowest point I found this forum.........and the people here are so nice.

[want2bme]

My husband was taking Adderall for a while ..he really does have add however he too started to abuse them.  He would become the exact person you just explained above and was awful to be around.  
What about starting an antidepressant for the anxiety and depression?  I have a big issue with anxiety and went a long time without taking any medication until about 6 years ago.  My Dr suggested Celexa and it has been great for the anxiety.  It takes a few weeks to build in your system but it isnt abusive.
From my husbands experience I can see how you think this medication is helping you with the depression however all that it is doing is getting you high.  I have heard alot of people becoming abusive to adderal so I do not think this makes you anything like a junky.