Helping my community SOBER.U can get&STAY CLEAN

[overopiates]

I live n a town right outside of Hattiesburg called Petal in Mississippi.We have a vicious storm&a couple streets over there r homes gone.To the ground from the tornados that hit this week.Im blessed our home is ok but both cities have been visited from fema and declared a disaster.I decided to help as much as I can as Ive never lived n a small town til now and they really come together.We donated cloths,dishes,my4r old even kindly donated lots of toys and2bikes for kids who lost their stuff.I love to cook&have been making lots of food families have been so appreciative.That being said I feel great helping my community&have been out and about helping with anything they need.I have bumbed into 5people who I knew and hadnt seen or talked to since I quit.People who lost everything and the1st thing they say(before hi or how is your family)do u have some pills cause they r so stressed or whatever.I say i quit a long time ago.Then I have people begging me to help them find some.They have money from the bank or a paycheck and rather than worrying about their kids,a place to sleep or bare basics they want to spend there last dime on stupid pills.I had1person tha said Im happy u quit and didnt continue all the rest well lets just say they dont have respect for an addict quitting.I had a man offer me pills AFTER I said I hadnt taken any in so long because as he said Im doing a lot I could use the energy from them.All I can say is if u r struggling,planning to quit or freshly clean and sober ALL OF THE STRUGGLES ARE BEYOND WORTH IT.I am so happy that Im not in the deeps of my addiction and using because I would be searching or popping pills instead of helping my community.I know if I was still using  I would b just like those few I encounted.Im no better by far just in recovery and able to focus on whats important.I wrote this as an experience so those wondering if its really worth it.IT IS.I wouldve never been doing this without a ton of pills for the energy cause I was strung out.U WILL get to a place where u feel better physically,are mentally so strong and out of that prison of pills.U can do this.Just thought I would share.KEEP ON TRYING U WILL GET THERE!!

[overopiates]

Thank u so much.I am glad u got what I was saying about experiencing and hopefully planting a seed with my son.He is however telling a story of each toy like a good bye lol.Addiction isnt fought with pure will power as much as we want it to be that simple ur right its a disease and we need to be informed on how to get it n remission.No we(as addicts using)r not morally bad at all.We are feeding an addiction and tend to do things that we would NEVER do otherwise(lie to our loved ones ir many steal for example).

[vicki595]

I am so damn proud of you at this moment I could cry...you're just beautiful.

[overopiates]

Awwe Vicki thats so sweet.Just so u know u r one of those people who was truelly there for me from the begining and ur support and the fact that u always have kind words for me has meant so much.U r an amazing woman and such an asset to this forum and me.U r truelly cherished.xoxo

[ImDONENoMore]

Wow.  Powerful story.  And a sad one.  I can't even begin to imagine walking around, in such despair over such great losses, and to be thinking only of finding more pills?  That makes me sick to my stomach and beyond sad.

But vicki's right.  You are beautiful.

[Brightfutureahead]

Great Post!  Its nice that your son is sharing in this experience as well. Reading about your perspective, and all of the good that you are doing, brought a smile to my face.

Keep doing what you're doing- lead by example. Recovery is very attractive.  I'm sure even if it doesn't seem like it, some of those people are watching you- they want what you have.

I remember feeling stuck and hopeless. I would put on such a front. On the outside, i was just dine. On the inside, I was crumbling. I would look at people doing 'normal' things (cooking, enjoying family get togethers sober, sports, etc) and be so envious of the fact they weren't searching and scheming to pump themselves full of drugs. Now, with help, I've climbed back up and brushed myself off (like many of us!!). There are some people around me (acquaintances, not really 'friends', and a few family members) that I know struggle with pills. I just keep setting a good example and saying a prayer or too, in hopes that someone else decides to dig their heels in deep and do some work!


You are like a lighthouse at night- surrounded by the daunting sea. Shine on my friend!

[vicki595]

Thanks for the sweet words Honey, I appreciate it.  So, what are you cooking up today??