Helping my community SOBER.U can get&STAY CLEAN

[overopiates]

I live n a town right outside of Hattiesburg called Petal in Mississippi.We have a vicious storm&a couple streets over there r homes gone.To the ground from the tornados that hit this week.Im blessed our home is ok but both cities have been visited from fema and declared a disaster.I decided to help as much as I can as Ive never lived n a small town til now and they really come together.We donated cloths,dishes,my4r old even kindly donated lots of toys and2bikes for kids who lost their stuff.I love to cook&have been making lots of food families have been so appreciative.That being said I feel great helping my community&have been out and about helping with anything they need.I have bumbed into 5people who I knew and hadnt seen or talked to since I quit.People who lost everything and the1st thing they say(before hi or how is your family)do u have some pills cause they r so stressed or whatever.I say i quit a long time ago.Then I have people begging me to help them find some.They have money from the bank or a paycheck and rather than worrying about their kids,a place to sleep or bare basics they want to spend there last dime on stupid pills.I had1person tha said Im happy u quit and didnt continue all the rest well lets just say they dont have respect for an addict quitting.I had a man offer me pills AFTER I said I hadnt taken any in so long because as he said Im doing a lot I could use the energy from them.All I can say is if u r struggling,planning to quit or freshly clean and sober ALL OF THE STRUGGLES ARE BEYOND WORTH IT.I am so happy that Im not in the deeps of my addiction and using because I would be searching or popping pills instead of helping my community.I know if I was still using  I would b just like those few I encounted.Im no better by far just in recovery and able to focus on whats important.I wrote this as an experience so those wondering if its really worth it.IT IS.I wouldve never been doing this without a ton of pills for the energy cause I was strung out.U WILL get to a place where u feel better physically,are mentally so strong and out of that prison of pills.U can do this.Just thought I would share.KEEP ON TRYING U WILL GET THERE!!

[overopiates]

Awwe Vicki thats so sweet.Just so u know u r one of those people who was truelly there for me from the begining and ur support and the fact that u always have kind words for me has meant so much.U r an amazing woman and such an asset to this forum and me.U r truelly cherished.xoxo

[vicki595]

I am so damn proud of you at this moment I could cry...you're just beautiful.

[overopiates]

Thank u so much.I am glad u got what I was saying about experiencing and hopefully planting a seed with my son.He is however telling a story of each toy like a good bye lol.Addiction isnt fought with pure will power as much as we want it to be that simple ur right its a disease and we need to be informed on how to get it n remission.No we(as addicts using)r not morally bad at all.We are feeding an addiction and tend to do things that we would NEVER do otherwise(lie to our loved ones ir many steal for example).

[clean_in_ks]

What a joyous post!  We really do reap what we sow.  And how cool it is that your 4 yr old is experiencing this with you clean and a helping heart that simply wouldn't even be possible if you were still putting drugs in your body!!  Your example is "planting seeds" you don't even know about yet!!

We don't realize for SO long that we aren't morally bad people; or if we just were "strong enough" or "had enough willpower" this wouldn't be happening to US.  WRONG.... we are people who have a disease.  I know if I had cancer or diabetes, I'd research my a** off and read as much as I possibly could and be openminded to all the latest research.  Addiction is an epidemic....when a flu virus or some other major health crisis hits, we want to find out HOW to deal with it.
If we do the same thing about OUR disease, we will be richly blessed and be able to help others.  You are SHINING......so BRIGHT!
Thank you for sharing today~

[overopiates]

Ricat ur right thats funny but sad I can now do positive things.I have been making some awesome food too lol.All homemade,from scratch too.I have only been tasting cause Im watching my weight(lost over40lbs since I quit pills only1size above my goal of what I was before pregnancy).Im n the place of home cooking and comfort food is needed for them.I wish they would follow the example.I wanna shake em and scream get off those things u will love life.vvic I c u know how good it feels.U get to a place where u look back and r so relieved that u arent there anymore STUCK.Glad u r reaping the rewards of this too.Im by no means some like amazing peraon.I know for a fact if I were n there situation they would do the same.I realize sober I like the feel of the coming together and support each other.We r taking toys to a couple families with cloths etc.I cnt wait to c these kids happy they will have some normalcy by having there own things again.

[VICourageous]

Great Post it is so nice to hear some great positiveness.......I have found that in my recovery now going in 6m I have just been flowing with blessing in everywhich way..You are soooo right it only gets better and to be intuned with the mind and body is a blessing. I know that there will be some tough situations comming, but this is why I go to NA/AA and study alot about the disease of addiction. Thank you for the post. You seem to be a caring, giving person with a heart of gold to do the service you have been doing......
God Bless You
vvic