Oxy withdrawl no one knows need to talk

[caseyjra]

Hi, I have been on everything you can think of over the past year- all prescribed- most recently I was up 40mg of Oxyir 4 times a day, and i am on a schedule to pick up my presciption this wed however i cracked at the thought of coming down off them, as i was out early- days away from my next script.  My husband finally spoke up... i had been waiting for him to and said he thought i might have a problem- i knew from the first day i took percs I had the makings of an addict, i was happy to never have the option until recently, i ligitimately throw my back out alot- so they finally did some ct scans and mri's and found i have a defect in my spine from birth- i am missing 2 bones in my lower back so if i lift something the part of my spine slams down on the nerves where i cant walk, for about 2 weeks, my question is -i know i have a problem, i would put myself i rehab but i am afraid of someone finding out its embarressing, not to mention i dont have people to watch the kids when my husband works. No matter what i have nothing until wednesday and i have tried to go off before but withdrawls kill me and i somehow always get my hands on more- always- til now, for those out there with ligitimate pain what do you do? i need something for pain to live normally but i know wed if i pick it up i will be right back to where i started- i know myself what do i do,i dont have anyone to talk to really about this- no one knows, just need some guidance i got sucked into oxy but i realized too late... i am at 24 hours now of not taking anything and i know what i am in for- what do i do?

[caseyjra]

this is awful, lucky this time my husband knows, for the first time in 2 years i have felt like a couple, to give a bit of history in the last 4 years, I lost my brother to cancer at age 30, got married, have had 2 children, bought a house, and started my own business, writing that seems so overwhelming lol i havent really thought about it, but i know i started abusing after i lost my brother, being strong for my parents, for my son, i didnt deal with it, so the "hug" you feel the warmth from oxy is what i have been living for- without me realizing it. My days are spent thinking of when i can get it, when i can take it, when someone will figure out i have a problem and stop me, i am a mess without it, no energy, no motivation, no life. i need out from under this but im pretty sure i cant do this at home- but again i have no one to watch my kids, i would go in a heartbeat to an inpatient program, if it would fit into my life- i watched a video of me from 2 years ago when my son was born, i was such a different person, happy, full of energy, now i have turned into a couch potato stoned out of my mind most of the time- it doesnt hurt this way- i have actual pain- alot some days but i know the more stressed i get the more i need, i know i am fooling myself- docs say dependent vs addicted- to me its a blurred line that you dont see yourself crossing until its too late..all i can think of is wed and getting my pills but at the same time realizing im doing ok, 33 hours and im ok- i feel like i can do it, but i fail everytime this will be the longest without, any advice at all i welcome

[caseyjra]

I have tried non narcotic routes the pain is way too intense when my back is out- problem is i remember 1 year ago when i only needed pain killers when i threw it out and somehow grew in to a daily thing- taking 8-20 OxyIR's 20mg a day, at one point my script was for 240 percocets and 80 IR's - prescribed per month- i always took more and more and thought one day someone is going to say no, and surprisingly no one did. they would just up my dosage this *****

[oxysufferer]

Hi. Do not be embarrassed if you have a problem .Hundres are copping with this every day. You sound like you have a legitimate reason to take pain pills. The key is to not abuse them. Go to a pain clinic and have an evaluation. Suboxone works well for pain and prevents withdrawals. I usually would not recomment this but in your case It could be a possible solution. With suboxone you take just once a day in the morning.The key is getting a correct diagnosis and the correct dosage for you,  If you take pain pills as directed you should be fine. Never over lap. with oxycontin. Do not take one less than 12 hours apart. They are time released and if you over lap they build up in your system and play havoc with your body, you can end up with more serious problems then the reasons you started taking them in the first place.
If you have sudden pain in the take Tylenol or Aleve.

Good luck. And I cant stress enough. Go to a qualified pain management specialist. Never self medicate.

[scaredmom330]

Welcome, Check out the thomas recipe and the amino acid protocol. get immodium, bananas, gatorade. you are gonna feel like you have the flu for about a week. take plenty of hot showers or baths. exercise when you can. If you can talk to your doctor he can help alot with withdraws. post and keep posting. read other threads. there are lots of wonderful people here to help or just listen.  Will otc meds help with your condition once you are clean? you might want to discuss non narcotic meds with your doctor. good luck and keep in touch