I think there is a huge difference in wanting to quit and trying to quit. I "tried" so many times, but deep down never truly wanted it. I wanted to get through w.d so I could lower my tolerance and not be physically addicted, I always had the notion I would do them once and a while and not let it get out of hand. I was very naive. I "tried" to quit at least 100 times. The first time I actually quit for longer then 3 days, I lasted almost 3 months, most of the people that are still here probably remember when I relapsed. It was so hard for me to tell everyone here and I was very, very depressed and sad. It was probably one of my lowest points. I got myself more help and focused more on my aftercare and have been clean for over a year now and hopefully, won't go back. I think many relapse, you have to truly want to stop. When you do, you will.
I tried to quit more times than I can even count over the years and ALWAYS relapsed, each and every time.. Probably like 30 times.. I usually make it through withdrawal then relapse when I feel better -- thinking I can 'control it'. THIS time however, NOPE. I know this is not true and I cannot control it. I know people who aren't addicts don't even think that way.. This my first time Ive been clean for this long. I sought support through this site and friends made on here. Thank you Med Help!
I hate to say this, but i'm 51 yrs old and i'm just starting my 8 day clean.
I started when I was 23. Didn't mean to get addicted. I'm female & went to my Doc for heavy & painful periods. He gave me Darvocet. I haven't been clean for more that a year at a time since then. And I mean I might have had a COUPLE of yrs here & there!
I'm sure you can do it! I just had a buch of other emotional issues I was medicating.
I just know i will never touch FENTANYL again!
I tried to quit for 5 years, but had at least 50 relapses before I got it right. Relapse does not have to be a part of recovery, but not many make it the first time. I tried N/A, almost went to rehab, but still failed. I learned by keeping your addiction a secret is one of the worst things we can do. How can you quit if your still in denial? YOU CAN'T! Support and learning tools will help us stay clean. I wish I would have got it right the first time, I would have saved myself a lot of pain. Lets keep fighting and don't be a statistic. One day at a time:)
i relapsed both back in the 80's, 90, and about 5 times since december2008. the slope she be a slippery one. this time i am working hard on keeping it. i have more support than i believed possible. i do not want to have my power over myself gone again, that gives over all my control. i know step 1. and bless anyone who can work a 12 step program. i tried for over a year. i'm doing something better this time for me. i want to have power over this. i wish you all the best. stay strong. sway
1st time I quit ct and it was h3ll...I mean 60 days later it was still bad so I thought if I manage it right I would be OK; I had no plan, no aftercare and kinda pushed through it but relapsed. This last time, I tapered, had a plan, set goals, etc and my clean time is nearing 14 months...my goal now is 2 years.
It's all good :-)