Day #15 How long does the desire last

[denise3606]

I was having a hard time getting back on this forum and I am here now..Today is the Dr. Appointment, but I have already made up my mind that I will not get any pills..I am still struggling with energy and desire to do anything, but I am forcing myself to do things..I am so upset with myself for getting into this mess...The posting really helps. I will come back when I get back...Have a great day every one...Hugs Denise

[denise3606]

I will look into that...Thanks...

[Lovemomof2]

Hi Denise! I think of you everyday, we have been together in this BATTLE. Not joking, when I woke up I remembered it was your doctor day and came on to see how you did. Good job! I just wanted to tell you I checked out an all women's AA meeting. You should try it....so helpful. I was surprised at how much better it made me feel. :)

[denise3606]

Ron, you make me laugh...I kept myself really busy today. Tomorrow I am doing service..Service is so important to get out of yourself I feel..For me anyway and there are so many opportunity to serve..Like myself I really don't have any money but I feel giving of oneself makes a difference in my recovery..I just came back from a long walk to keep my mind busy..I am tired, but a good tired...Thanks for all you do,...Love you lots Denise

[Norco1947]

Hi Denise ,  Don't panic , Everyone is different .
I really have no craveings or thoughts about wanting pills past day #30  , But thats just me ,
Craveings go away for some , others have craveings and learn to deal with them . Using is not a choice .
When a crave hits you just go do something like walk the dog . Post to pass time , make it thru one more day pill free ... Remember that  lots of us here have been where your at and know the fight is hard ,
What my new tee shirt should say is  .
Been there , done that ,Think the Horse took a ride on me  ...   Ron

[YesLife4Me]

Excellent!   It's so liberating to say no and take charge isn't it Denise!!  

[denise3606]

Came back from the doc. and No pills for me....So much to do, but will take my time..As far as my pain...ice, heat and advil...Got a bunch of errands to run...I am not craving so much right now, so according to may great sources here, they really never go away..and you are right not to have them around...Love you guys...Denise

[Fireby29]

Hi Denise,

Not to be a downer, but I am 160 plus days clean and like Life said my desire to use has not gone away.  That is why aftercare, telling your secret and getting red flagged at doc, dentist and pharmacy is so important.  It protects you to where if you crave you cannot get any.

For example, I have a very active job in emergency services so i try to stay in the gym.  My hip has been bugging me for months and when I went to my doc, getting pills was not even an issue.  In fact we had a laugh and then a very frank discussion about if I ever broke my hip, of course I would get narcs.  Point is, had I not been truthful with my doctor about my issue with the hydro, I would have asked for pills and probably got them.  Think about it, and hang in there your doing great.

Bryan

[YesLife4Me]

The desire doesn't ever go away Denise.   I'm sorry to be brutally honest, but the only way to help keep that desire in check is to make sure that your sources are not available to you.   That way when a craving/desire kicks in and those 'maybe' thoughts creep in, you know that getting more is not an option.   There will be opportunities that present themselves to you, such as the purse incident the other day, or friends thinking they are helping by offering you some.   Those are tests.   Remember the insanity in those moments.   And if you haven't, write down all the reasons why you don't want to take pills anymore and what the consequences will be if you do.  Read them often!  :)   Seems like you were just posting it was your day 8 and now here I am!  You are making a difference for so many people here!    

[Norco1947]

Hi Denise , Wow your enjoying things again . Yes still a fight with some up's & down's for a few more days .
Now  think , would i have been able to go and enjoy my day with daughters and family , friends and be a movie star on pills every 2-3 hours . No That would not have happened 1 month ago . ... Ron

[worried878]

For many, and for me as well..it is best to tell ur doctor so the temptation is gone when u see him to get them.  If that is not an option for you, then be strong today when u see him.  I do not want to be negative, just realistic.  The desire does not ever go away tho, not for an addict.  It becomes less and less frequent over time, but even yrs later, when the world seems dark and stress invades ur peace of mind, the pills will call ur name.  This is why aftercare is so important for long term clean time
Good luck to u

[D713]

15 days wow? You're good....almos ta month it be over not even soon a blink of an eye...

[blotout]

ive found from past experience that the desire will come and go, when i get stressed it hits me hard, or for some reason i just feel empty like i have a hole to fill, right now im on 20mgs of methadone and ive noticed the lower i get the more the desire is returning, i think exercise helps alot if you can, me personally im just to damn lazy lol, when you have a desire think about all the bad thats comes from the drug not all the good feeling it gives you, good luck

[denise3606]

Thanks Ron you are the best...I have to tell you something funny. This last Friday one of my daughters that lives with me temporally drove two hours to go spend time with my other daughter and family and we got there about 15 min.later than their church Christmas program started..Then my other daughter and her family said that we were helping them in their program...All of a sudden here we are behind the stage and the curtain opens and in front of over 300 people here we are..It felt like a movie , but we did it ..Took every thing I had not to laugh out of control...Have a great day Denise

[Norco1947]

Hi Denise ,  The fight to regain your life is not easy . You have been doing pills for months and when you quit your mind & body take time to heal . You have to stay positive you will recover . A few  more days and things will improve , You have fought hard to get where your at now , The reward will happen . You will feel good again , pill free .
As for being upset with yourself , thats over now , you should have pride in your fight every day you are pill free . Takes a strong person to  beat this addiction , Your almost there . Get tuff not upset ..  This will end soon... Ron