I have been on pain meds for 4 yrs... it started with vicodin for back pain, first it was 4 a day, then 6 a day, then it went from 5mg to 10mg 6-8 times a day. Then I had carpal tunnell surgery..... more vicodin then after that I went off it for about 5 months and felt fine. Then my shoulder and elbow started hurting more and more and my hand did not feel fixed from the carpal tunnel surgery..... so then they give me ulnar nerve surgery... more pain meds before and after..... still in pain and having extreme headaches.... i was in the er once a week.... do a cat scan... comes to find out all that had been wrong with me... was my brain. chiari malformation... a very severe one.... my brain had literally hyerniated 9mm down my neck and caused a huge cyst in my spinal cord.... I was told if it was not found I would have been dead in 6 months. Good news is they fixed it, well sort of, i will always have the cyst... u cant operate in someones spinal cord and the recovery from the brain surgery and dealing with the cyst pain and the emotional pain of knowing I could have died and some day the cyst could grow again and I will never know, i have to pay attention to my symptoms... which hello... is PAIN....... 2 yrs go by and im sick of the pain meds... they are never strong enough, there are never enough of them.... i was taking 120 15mg oxcys every 10 days..... thats what they prescribe after this surgery and you get to stay on it for your cyst pain even longer...... well i never was able to adjust to not taking that many in 10 days... they kept giving me oxcys but it was never enough..... one day i just woke up and was sick of the game, sick of counting the days till the next refill, sick of borrowing from other chronic pain patients, sick of paying for meds that i can get for free if i didnt eat them all in a week! So i stopped talking them and tried to detox myself at home with some ultram...... no one told me ultram would be hell to get off off then down to vicodin.... Im in hell.... legs are aching, i feel like i wanna scream but then i cant move... im agitated but cant do anything... this is my choice... bc of my condition i could stay on this crap forever... i dont want to... i flushed the rest of my vics down the toilet..... but i am in hell....... how long will this last????? I can handle being tired, not eating, being slow and low... but the leg pain and agitation and the feeling in my chest is making me feel crazy..... plus i havent slept in 3 days... how much longer???? Do i ask my dr for more vic to make it easier or just get threw it????
I have been off of oxycontin for about 1 1/2 weeks and feel great. I was taking about 60 mg daily and then cut down to 20 mg then to 10.for a few days each.. then took vicodin for 4 days... then tramadol for 5 days.then quit.. and had no withdrawl symtoms. My head was a bit foggy at first but I feel much better and have not had any cravings at all. Life is so much better now that I don't have to worry about where I'm going to get my next pill.
thank you for your words. I was a heavy user of whatever I could get my hands on back in 05-08. I decided to enter a methadone clinic. Worst mistake ever. After 2 1/2 years of that I lowered my dose to 2mg from 140. over a years time that was. But I could not make it past week 2 of detox. I then began to take suboxene. Now a year and half later I am coming off of that. I said enough. today is day 5, and this day is way better than yesterday. My partner has no idea, I have done well at keeping it together. Thank you again. reading that has gave me the jolt I needed to get through a couple of more days!!
This is day 10 for me, and I can't sleep. Night time terrifies me. My left hip is really bad off and I refuse to take anything at all for any kind of pain. By the middle of the day, I can not even walk or take a deep breath from the pain in my hip. If only I could sleep. I read the Thomas Recipe and finally have the money to get some of the things tomorrow. I really hope this stuff works. Good luck to all, I will never trust a doctor again! I used to sleep all the time, anytime... How much longer do I have to go. I have been taking average 3 750/500 a day for a year...
is anyone here,i'm not sure how this works.i'm on day six and have a job coming up that is really important i have 0 energy i feel like my throat hurt's i need pills bad or i'll **** up the job.i'm scared to death my hubby is having his 3rd major surgery in 3 years,i'm terrified i cant cope without pills.
I am on day 22 and have blurred vision weakness and confusion in my mind also. does this end anytime soon? Currently taking Clonipin Neurotin, Glucophag. 2 Blood Pressure meds and Wellbutrin. I am in a daze now and hoping it passes soon!