Day 6 - 136 hours Clean

[Wildewoman]

Hi All ~

Slept great!! Went to bed very early - after 2 melatonin - and slept until about 2:45 AM (my usual wake up time - I am a very early riser & an early to bed kind of girl)

Started working right away - as I have to go to the office today - so catching up on things.

I feel okay - no WD (thank God) and not too anxious.

I got very lucky - my PCP ordered a few more Xanax - haven't taken any - just knowing I have them is a BIG relief.

I need to get going - walk the dogs then head to the office.

Wish me luck!! I may not be able to get on the site today - but I will check in when I get home tonight.

Thank you all - I really couldn't have done it without all of the support here.

We see our therapist on Thursday for some after care.

[nursegirl6572]

She gave me 10 Xanax and I think I'm done with them.

I think that's wise.  You don't want to feel like you "need" them, or it will end up another "crutch", not to mention the actual dependency issue.  7 days is amazing!  Truly!  Give yourself a pat on the back!  You're soon going to be feeling better and better every day!

[Wildewoman]

She gave me 10 Xanax and I think I'm done with them.

The day didn't end so UP - as I hit a wall and had to leave a little early - but I put in my usuall 12 hour day!!

Took my melatonin - and will be going to bed soon!!

Looking forward to day # 7.

[Ann2497]

Sounds like you are doing really well.   I agree about feeling better mentally just knowing that you have the Xanax if you need them.  I feel that way about the Clonidine.  As soon as I had the bottle in my hand, I felt calmer.

Keep up the good work!

[nursegirl6572]

You're doing great!

I would recommend being 100% DONE with the Xanax after this supply.  How many did your doc prescribe?  You don't want to have to contend with benzo w/ds!  Also, the longer you take them, the worse any rebound anxiety you have when you stop taking them will be.

Yoga class sounds like a fantastic idea!  Anything you can try to help you cope with the anxiety and tension will help tremendously.  It's good that you're getting back into a routine...that helps too!

[Butterfly1503]

Awesome! Glad you had a great day! Tomorrow will be even better too! (Hugs)

[ROSYouralright]

Congrats! Your doing GREAT! Glad to hear that you got some sleep! Keep on keeping on!

[Wildewoman]

Hi folks - I thought I would sneak in & say I made it to work. Fully clothed - I had the hubby check. lol

I did an agenda in my head as I drove in- things I had to do today - and I have done 3 of the 4. So now I feel like I can breath a little - I find I am holding my breath a lot.

Also - I have started to clench my teeth. I did invisalign a few years back & then got the retainers - which I wear every night. I cracked those months ago & ordered the heavy duty - nuclear ones - really thick - so at least my teeth are protected. But my jaw hurts when I wake up.

Just sharing things as I feel them.

OH - and this is weird - remember I started taking these nasty Norco 2 years ago for my back - well, it isn't hurting me as badly as I thought it would.  Just saying . . . .

I think I'll look into a yoga class for the weekend.

[HappyDays2Come]

Yeah great job on day 6!! You've been such a rock star through the w/ds! Each day will get a little better and remembering to focus on the aftercare and never letting your guard down will really start to become more important as you begin to feel better and more "normal." I'm really enjoying you around here! You're helping so many others already and that's awesome so see:).

[toothfairie]

Congrats on those 6 days!  way to go girl!  :))

[Butterfly1503]

Whoohoo!!! Congratulations!!!!!!!!

[Wildewoman]

Thanks Smiling - and you're right - I AM AMAZING!
lol

Good luck to you today as well.

Let's chat later tonight about the great day we had!! :=)

[SmilingBright]

Awesome job girlie.  Keep those days coming.  Have a wonderful day at work today. Heading to the office as well today!!  

[livyspop]

Support is huge but dont forget that its YOU that is doing this. Give yourself credit. This is a tough fight that YOUR winning.

[Wildewoman]

Thanks Pop. It has bee the hardest thing I have ever done. Thank God my husband has been so very supportive.

[livyspop]

6 days is awesome and that your able to sleep is even....awesome-er? Lol. Congratulations on a well fought 6 days. Keep trucking!

[Wildewoman]

Thanks!! I don't quite feel -"normal" whatever the hell that is - still feel very raw - emotionally.

I got some St. Johns wort yesterday - hoping this well help.

[spider6]

Hi, Wildewoman,
That's soooo awesome!  You seem to be coming along just fine. I'm sure I'll be one of many thinking of you today. Rrrrroar!!! You ARE the "Wildewoman"!  Rock it sista!! I know you're going to be just great. 8)

[Molytex]

So good to hear :o) hang in there and keep racking up those days