How to deal?

[lostsoul2]

I have been clean, off of vics for about 4 weeks.  I don't really crave them, but what I am looking for is an answer to how the hell do I numb myself to all the pain in my life, emotional, without any drug?  It's always been something, and vics were just another in a list throughout my life.  I have been completely clean and plan to stay that way, not even alcohol.  I really don't have an interest in anything to escape, but how do I deal without something?  How do I numb myself to not hurt so much?  I am lifting weights again, which helps a lot, but any pointers would be great.

[CR_ST_NA]

im no religious nut, i mean im just a girl that loves Jesus, a girl in need of a savior. i find my comfort in Gods word. the book of Matthew says: "come to Me all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest" i know that feeling of having to feel your feelings and it doesn't feel good. i just look at it this way: at least when i'm feeling bad i know that good is just around the corner. i never wanted to feel anything, i always used drugs to numb out and when i got of them i was glad to at least feel something. God Bless christina

[10356]

I'm very sorry to read of the troubles in your marriage.. I agree with all above about therapy.. I never thought it could help but I found it did.. When I'm feeling low I use the camera as a way to view life differently.. It takes me out of myself and into another world.. Expressions of sorrow joy and what have you can be clearly displayed in a picture.. Transferring my emotion into a visual has been a comfort and a way of changing my mood.. I just wanted to share this with you as a picture speaks a thousand words.. Congrats on your clean time and I wish you well... lesa

[road2recovery]

Congrats on your clean time!!!  I don't know if i can offer alot, but like you i have figured i used more for escape then energy or anything...When i started seeing my counsouler, i really didnt' think it would do any good...I was very mistaken..I realized i had alot of stuff i needed to get out, and deal with...now, i was not going through the ending of a marriage, which has to be tough with your clean time...I am so sorry for that...But I do think that a counsouler can really help you....
I agree with snowflake i look at things now, in a better way, like a gift...( now not everyday, everyone has bd days)....Sometimes i will see something sad on tv, on the news etc, and think darn i should not feel this way, things can be worst..I watched a St Judes program a while back, and felt really bad for feeling the way i did somedays..my kids are healthy, etc...that is what helps me..
one day at a time., one minute at a time sometimes....
God bless and good luck
r2r

[snowflake620]

I'm sorry for your troubles but as you said drugs were your ESCAPE! to feel normal so you never felt normal! Please don't give up I know you have heard this a million and one times but life will get better you never said if you take the 5htp or not if you don't please try it and keep posting the people hear are very caring and compasionate
snowflake

[lostsoul2]

I know what you say is true.  I actually have a pretty good amino regimen for weight lifting.  I know I'm depressed, drugs have always been my escape to feel "normal."  But I refuse to do that anymore.  I am going through a really bad stretch in my marriage and it might be ending, I guess that's what I want to numb myself from.  I guess all these emotions are tough cuz I've always escaped from them.  I'm lookin for a clean answer, no drugs at all, and I'm determined.

[snowflake620]

the only way to numb yourself to life is to not live it everyday is a gift from GOD,good or bad sweetie,life is what you make out of what you are given,do you have any aftercare? or maybe a counselor you could talk to? It sounds to me like you are a bit depressed,have you tried any herbal remidies or amino acids that help with depression? I take 5htp it is an amino acid and has done wonders for my depression life is hard but I look at it alot differently now I see it as a gift not just something to be taken for granted,I wish you well and congrats on the clean time you have acomplished alot by getting clean but the true fight is staying clean and you can do it
snowflake