Hydrocodone Abuse

[mgrace00]

Hello. I have a question for current or former hydrocodone addicts. I have been taking this medication for about a year now and have turned myself into a monster when it comes to the drug. I have 10/325s. I am to the point of wanting to stop, and I have made a plan to do so. But I have a question about something that concerns me. When I take this medication, I obviously do not take it as prescribed. I am an over-doer. I will take as many as it takes for me to feel the high that hydrocodone gives. Since I have been taking them for a year, that is about 6 at a time. Sometimes I will take 6 then I will take another in 45 min-1 hr, and another again in the same amount of time, to keep the high going. I have been doing this for about 2 weeks. I need to know about overdose. This may seem like a silly question to some, but it is a very serious one to me. I know that overdose can occur within a certain amount of time after one takes the medicine, but can it occur after large amounts have been taken for an extended amount of time. For example, since I have been taking 12+ per day, for about 2 weeks, will my body give out and something bad happen to me out of the blue?  What I am worried about is respiratory depression. I have been feeling a little more anxious than usual, but my breathing is ok. My blood pressure is ok, but my pulse was a little low earlier, at 61. I need real answers please. Answers from experience of taking high amounts for long periods of time, every day, without pause. Please do not try to scare me by giving me exaggerated answers. Please do not do this. I am already scared, and I know that the only way to not be worried is to not take the mess. I am truly working on stopping.  Thank you.

[brokenspiritandsoul]

You can send me a private message if you like. I will help any way I can!  

[mgrace00]

Thank you so much for sharing  your story. I would like to send you a private message.

[toothfairie]

yes you will find lots of support and concern here on this forum....just keep close to the site and we can help you when you decide you want off for good....it is a scary thing to do....we've ALL been right where you are...wanting to stop so bad but scared of the WDs...it's doable....with support (besides here)..and cutting ALL your sources out and getting rid of all pills you have, unless you taper, you can do this....you just have to be ok with NOT feeling ok for a bit....stick close to the posts and we can help you...

[mgrace00]

Thank you Bobo! Thank you.

[brokenspiritandsoul]

Please try and quit or taper down to a safe amount!  It was a very painful experience!  I was on a morphine drip because of the amount of pain!  I wish I would have quit then but nope, I am an addict!  I am ready to do it now as my friend is now in the hospital with her liver shutting down!  I dont want to die that way!  I am concerned for both of us!  

[mgrace00]

Ann, yes, I do have someone to help me, my brother. I will start at the beginning of the week. That is a good time for me. I have to get some things to prepare myself...