Hydrocodone Abuse

[mgrace00]

Hello. I have a question for current or former hydrocodone addicts. I have been taking this medication for about a year now and have turned myself into a monster when it comes to the drug. I have 10/325s. I am to the point of wanting to stop, and I have made a plan to do so. But I have a question about something that concerns me. When I take this medication, I obviously do not take it as prescribed. I am an over-doer. I will take as many as it takes for me to feel the high that hydrocodone gives. Since I have been taking them for a year, that is about 6 at a time. Sometimes I will take 6 then I will take another in 45 min-1 hr, and another again in the same amount of time, to keep the high going. I have been doing this for about 2 weeks. I need to know about overdose. This may seem like a silly question to some, but it is a very serious one to me. I know that overdose can occur within a certain amount of time after one takes the medicine, but can it occur after large amounts have been taken for an extended amount of time. For example, since I have been taking 12+ per day, for about 2 weeks, will my body give out and something bad happen to me out of the blue?  What I am worried about is respiratory depression. I have been feeling a little more anxious than usual, but my breathing is ok. My blood pressure is ok, but my pulse was a little low earlier, at 61. I need real answers please. Answers from experience of taking high amounts for long periods of time, every day, without pause. Please do not try to scare me by giving me exaggerated answers. Please do not do this. I am already scared, and I know that the only way to not be worried is to not take the mess. I am truly working on stopping.  Thank you.

[mgrace00]

Thank you so much!

[OpenMind24hours]

Congratulations on your decision! Good to hear your brother will help you! The best thing to do is give him all your stash to deal out to you on a taper program. Also tell your Doctor you want to get your life back. They have some scripts to help you through detox, like Clonidine for one. Make a commitment by going all the way with this and asking your Doctor for a good taper program; down to a point where you can go CT and not get in too much WD trouble.

Come here to this board for daily support. We all love to see miracles happen on here, and they do! You can be our next one. :-)

[Dane74]

You can do this and you seem to want it!!!  Your dose is high very high, not to say i too didn't take all that crap, but its so dangerous, please be carful.  It is so scary and overwhelming, i remember i was a complete basket case, but take it day by day and you will do it!!!!  

[mgrace00]

I am feeling so much more positive now than I was an hour ago. You all are my cheerleaders!  GO ME!  =)

[ricart70]

You can do it friend !    I took a ton also myself.  We have all been there and know exactly how you are feeling and we know about the obsession.things will definitely get better the longer you stay clean and the obsession will lessen. ;)  

[mgrace00]

Thank you! I will stay here. I will share my experience and I know I will need support. I appreciate you and everyone else.