Hydrocodone Abuse

[mgrace00]

Hello. I have a question for current or former hydrocodone addicts. I have been taking this medication for about a year now and have turned myself into a monster when it comes to the drug. I have 10/325s. I am to the point of wanting to stop, and I have made a plan to do so. But I have a question about something that concerns me. When I take this medication, I obviously do not take it as prescribed. I am an over-doer. I will take as many as it takes for me to feel the high that hydrocodone gives. Since I have been taking them for a year, that is about 6 at a time. Sometimes I will take 6 then I will take another in 45 min-1 hr, and another again in the same amount of time, to keep the high going. I have been doing this for about 2 weeks. I need to know about overdose. This may seem like a silly question to some, but it is a very serious one to me. I know that overdose can occur within a certain amount of time after one takes the medicine, but can it occur after large amounts have been taken for an extended amount of time. For example, since I have been taking 12+ per day, for about 2 weeks, will my body give out and something bad happen to me out of the blue?  What I am worried about is respiratory depression. I have been feeling a little more anxious than usual, but my breathing is ok. My blood pressure is ok, but my pulse was a little low earlier, at 61. I need real answers please. Answers from experience of taking high amounts for long periods of time, every day, without pause. Please do not try to scare me by giving me exaggerated answers. Please do not do this. I am already scared, and I know that the only way to not be worried is to not take the mess. I am truly working on stopping.  Thank you.

[VICourageous]

Hi again. If you can taper and then get the BP med that would be good. Get it when you are done. I could only use it at night. I used the Buspar during the day and evening. It took me many weeks of h*ll before I broke down and used it..But I came off of 3 meds at once and did not want to add any more..ekkk
You do not have to have high blood pressure to use this. It is a light weight one that they use Alot. I got it way back in the 90s before I went up the latter with my meds. I too was scared of it, but it is very good. It helps with Sleep and Anxiety. BUT if you can taper first that would be good. many of us can not do a taper. I could not, no matter if they would hide them , I could sniff them out and find them like a dog..haha Good luck and we will Cheer you on.
Bless

[mgrace00]

I want to start tomorrow with a taper. I am wondering if I can take this Clonadine medicine that everyone is telling me about and it work without me having to taper. If it a blood pressure medicine, I wonder how it works on someone that doesnt have blood pressure problems, like me. I will talk to my doc about it. I did not do well today. I took 6 earlier, and 8 tonight. So bad. Just horrible. I am not even at the place I was wanting to be when I took them. But I will not take anymore. I promise. I am disgusted with myself right now.

[mgrace00]

I am gonna try. I didn't do well today.

[mgrace00]

Thank you so much. I have a doctor that I have been to in the past that is more like a friend than anything. She was with me through my xanax addiction. She will help me in any way that she can. Thank you so much for your advice.

[Dane74]

Hey hun, if you have the help and support i believe taper is the way to go!  You are putting allot of pressure on yourself, if you want to go CT then get rid of ALL pills and if you want to taper give them to someone and have a plan.  What is your plan?  We all can help you.  You are mentally caving, so let us know what your plan is so we can help...OK?  We are all here for you.  Don't be ashamed to admit if you took one or more please, we all have had our fare share of "cheating" if you will.  You will beat this but you need a plan, we are all different in how we become clean.  

[VICourageous]

OH Yes Ann, I agree 100%..If you can taper Please do. It makes it a bit less intense and should not take as long. Just hang tight and fight the flight.