I BLEW IT!!!!

[ladyboop]

I want to say thank you to all my friends, and everyone who has been helping and supporting me!!

Now the bad news.. I hate to even post this. But I know If I am going to make it, I have to.. I'll try to keep it short..
My daughter came home for Morther's Day weekend. Do not see her alot. My b/f who knew I was kicking these pills, Just made it unbareable... He has no kids, and Just picks mine apart... And me as well, when they are around..  Come saturday late morning, I could take no more, So I got some pills, And the rest is history!!!!
I sit here crying my eyes out, that I let, myself down, and all my friends, I am so sick of this..... The merry go round never seems to stop!! There is so much more going on that I do not what to post about.. I can't seem to catch a break!! Nerver, It is always something... The harder I try, The more I seem to get slaped down.. It seem like I can't get out of this hole.. Evertime I get to the top, I get pushed back in!!!!  I know It does not help, But now I now why I kept taking the pills. It seems to make things better. You do not have to think about them. In the long run, It just puts you deeper in that hole...
Sorry for the venting..... Thanks,

                         Lady

[chef4u]

Life is like riding a horse you get kicked off you brush yourself off and get back on!! and start the crazy wild ride all over again! you can keep on riding it doesnt make you a faliure just HUMAN! all the best

[TJack]

Don't stay down.  Don't ever quit.  Eliminate what stress you can in your life.
Just a thought,  maybe the bf should go.  You deserve better than to be downed
and your kids to be downed by someone who is suppose to be on your side.  
Just something to think about.   You can get through this!  I know because I did
it.  I was so down at one time.  Sick of my life.  But, am still hanging in there and
trying.  Now i am trying to quit the booze.  Yeah, i changed one addiction for
another.  Not uncommon.  I couldn't make it if my husband wasn't my supporter, best friend >
and my Rock.  Never an unkind word.  He can't be the only man out there like that.
Don't settle for less.   Hugs, TJack

[confused456]

Lady! That is the most important thing that you keep trying no matter what!!! You can do this sweetie!! Hang in there!!!! Hugs

[ladyboop]

I thank you all for your support....

It has been a long day. But at least I have put down the bat, and am giving it another try. Have not used today! Guess that is a plus.. I am going to just take it one day at a time. Maybe even less. I know it is a long road, and not an easy one. I can only do what I can do...
Thanks to all my friends, and all the kind words...

                   Lady

[malenurse57]

Dust yourself off, get up and back in the fight. It is not a sin to fall down but it is if you stay down. Keepin' you as with everybody here in my prayers.
"T"

[Mikeinthesouth]

I replied to your pm. Did you get it? Take care and don't sweat it lady boop.... Mike