I CANT SURVIVE THIS DEPRESSION PLEASE HELP ME

[hatethewrongroad]

day 2.  crying and crying  feell so trapped in my head like there is no where i can go to for relief, i feel like i've permanently made it so only opiates will make me feel good. PLEASE tell me how you survived the L-O-N-G days of depression  it seems like i have a million miles to go.

[paleflower]

Hi sweetie. I'm starting day 6. The first 2 days I cried a lot, my mind was my worst enemy. We have all made the decision of getting clean and that is great. After 6 years using I couldn't remember how was life w/o drugs. The good news, what you are feeling is completely normal and it WILL go away soon. I pray a lot and ask God for strength and wisdom. In this forum you will find great advice and support. I feel much better today and so will you. Hang in there and God bless you:)

[hatethewrongroad]

thank you..i wanna be on day 6.

[paleflower]

You will get to day 6 and beyond. You are strong and you can do this. Your mind will play tricks on you, just avoid temptation. Throw away whatever substances you have been consuming. Is there anyone who can help you during withdrawal?

[Ann2497]

The depression is really really hard.  I was basically suicidal for several days and didn't think I was going to make it.  What got me through was staying busy, I stayed on this forum, watched TV, hugged my son a lot, read the bible, and prayed.  I also go thru knowing that a lot of people on this forum said that it gets better and I wanted to give it a chance and it did get better.  I am sooooooooooooooo glad that I didn't give in and take the pills.  I almost gave in.  Thank God that I didn't.  Please hang in there.  You do not want to go back to the pills.  It is a dead end life.

[littlebit667]

If you can, take a walk!  I had lunch with a friend on the second day.  I did not think I could do it.  But, I HAD to get out of the house..it really helped.  The depression is your brain pissed off it is not getting the drugs...it is making you as miserable as possible so you will relapse!  It does not know what to do and is not wanting to work.  The opiates did the work for it and it is lazy and made you are making it wake up!!!!  I drew a picture of a brain and threw a nerf ball at it!  Made me laugh in spite of the pain.  

You can do this!  One hour at a time.

[Kendraerika]

I was so depressed on day 2. I felt helpless and worthless. Every little thing I did that was semi productive, ie cooking, made me feel better. Day 3 is better. Good luck. Those receptors in your brain are lacking, and will begin to produce that feel-good juices soon. Give it time and don't give up! Just think, you don't want to have to redo the first 48.

[Kendraerika]

Oh  and pray! Even if you are not a believer, when you get relief, you may become one. I prayed for peace, and sleep, and I got it. Just a suggestion.

[hatethewrongroad]

to littlebit:     thanks for the chuckle, didn't think i had it in me!  I am going to take a walk.                           to ann:       I'm so encouraged by what yu said those are the same things I am trying to stay busy with. how long now have you been away from the drugs?

[Ann2497]

Today is day 31 for me.  Today I woke up and I didn't have that overwhelming depression feeling that I normally have and it felt great.

You might want to check out the article in the bottom right hand corner of this page under Most Viewed Health Pages titled Foods That Increase Dopamine Naturally.  That may help you.  It is worth a try anyway.

Let us know how you are doing.

[paleflower]

How are you feeling hun?

[hatethewrongroad]

I went for a walk (brr)  took a hot shower  (even shaved my legs..there must be hope :)   I am getting by...your so kind to check   thanks

[Ann2497]

I remember the first time I shaved my legs after starting WDs.  I was so proud of myself.  Glad you are getting by.  It could be so much worse.

[paleflower]

I did that yesterday! lol  of course there is hope! The future is golden! You'll see tomorrow you will feel much better. Something that has helped me a lot is a natural supplement called Valerian Root with Melatonin. I'ts all natural, cheap, and relieves anxiety and helps you sleep better, maybe you can give it a try. Hope u sleep well tonight. I will check on you tomorrow. God bless you.

[dominosarah]

I shook so bad there was no way i could shave my legs when i went thru wd!  It was nasty!!  lol

Today will be a good day, stay positive and know that you are doing something really good for you~~~sara

[gnarly_1]

HI first off what your going threw is prity normal for a detox many of us loose those artificial endorphins and go into a funk for a wile its all part of the stages of detox when you get up tomorrow look into the mirror and tell yourself your going to have a good day and do some of the things that you use to to do b/4 the drugs thatt brigs you enjoyment for me I started fishing again and I have a ham radio licenses so I got out a radio started going around my grand babys more there are lots of things that help with depression but you have to be pro /active in doing something about it if nothing else you may not have a perfict day but you will have a better one then the one you had today it will take some time for your brain chemistry to come around in the mean time do your best with the day you get and know your 1 day closer to healing good luck and God bless.....Gnarly  

[paleflower]

Hello! How are you feeling on day 3? Were you able to get some sleep last night?

[hatethewrongroad]

Hello all. got a few hours off and on last night  even though i took melatonin , magnesium, gaba, valerian, and sleepytime tea..i still tossed and turned all night, feel strange this morning ithink from all the herbs but not as depressed.  can't tell you how nice it is to wake up and have you guys messages there for me. THANK YOU    Gnarly:  your right i am trying to be as proactive as i can think of,  todays new thing is my body feels like its weighed down with bricks.    Sarah:  I always think of how far and long you've stayed on track...I can't imagine what you went through with having the shakes like that. what fortitude you have.

[Ann2497]

Sleep gets easier.  Hang in there.

[jlannspr]

How are you feeling? I have some feelings of depression. They are very strong. I don't feel like doing anything right now. This is the point where I would take another one. I look forward to talking about your day 4. Hang in there.

[paleflower]

Feeling depression is normal, specially during early w/d. I made a list of all the things that I will do now that I'm recovering. There's a new life ahead, look forward to it!! Just think you will feel soooo much better as days go by, the money you will save now that you don't need those devil pills, Christmas w family and friends etc....your mind will play all kind of tricks on you, but you are so much stronger you really CAN do this. The first days are the toughest and you are doing great!! Hang in there and don't ever look back...God bless:)

[dominosarah]

You are doing so good so keep it going.  Sleep and energy are the hardest to get thru but you will.  If the herbs and stuff arent working then just dont use anything.  I used to take a warm bath or drink a glass of warm milk before bed.

[hatethewrongroad]

DAY 3    hi you good people!!   Had a busy run around morning, not by choice,  but I held up surprisingly well. But this afternoon I'm crashing..feeling bad/sad, I've had this week off work, I am already so anxious about going back to work next week..I have a very physical job, and I'm feeling my pain again....wish I could get my head out of next week and just be here right NOW!!

[Ann2497]

Don't think about next week.  Every time it comes into your head start thinking about something else.  This week is all about you!  It is your time to be selfish.  Congrats on day 3.  You don't realize how many people give in by now.  They post on day 1 how they need help and never come back.  They go back to their pills because they can't handle it.  You should feel good about yourself right now.