I can't do this

[dem214]

I am on day 11 and not doing well at all. I am very depressed and sad feeling. Can't stop crying. I hope this is not what I have to look forward to for the rest of my days. I can't even figure out how to start my day. Everything is so weird and strange. I feel like I don't even know who I am anymore. Does it get better???

[killmypain]

Hey there! We understand what you're feeling here... better than anyone else in your life will. I am like you, couldn't tell anyone for a long time. Then I confided in one of my friends and he became a sounding board for me. However I found that people on this site were extremely helpful when I fell into a slump...., and you will do that... some days will be awesome, some days will be so so, and some days are flat out gonna suck. That's the nature of the beast and I have found that the longer my clean time is, the fewer hard days that I have. I just beat day 58, rounding the 2 month corner and am feeling pretty great.... Life without drugs is good..... better than I remember.... it's only gonna get better from here on out! You can do it! Don't give up!

[LeaAnn807]

Hi!  First thing is this.  You can't do it alone.  Talk to someone if you can't do meetings.  Doing it alone is a sure way to relapse!  Trust me.  This is coming from the previous "most independent person on the planet!" ME!

It is just one day of your awesome 11 days clean!  Don't get too upset yet.  Tomorrow may be so much better!  If you have a few days like this, go talk to your doc about it.  You may need an AD for short term.  I did!  It's no big deal!  Working out is wonderful for low mood.  

You're gonna do great!  Congrats on your clean time.  You CAN do this!: )

[dem214]

Can't do meetings. No one knows this about me and I don't want anyone to find out. I am doing this alone  

[Dknd4v]

think of it this way before the drugs and people who dont use have bad days right? then know some days will be good and some will be not so good but thats anyones life... hang in there it gets so much better... everyday... u will see.. r u doing any meetings?

[dedicatedtostop]

We know, and we care! It will soon pass my friend I promise!! I will be right here by your side.

[dem214]

Thx for your words of wisdom. Congrats on your clean time   I hope this will pass soon I feel like everyone around me is happy but me. No one knows so I have to act like nothing is wrong.

[kitascloudy]

I was feeling that exact same way on day 7. All while i was at work! What worked for me was time and my friends on this site. It helps to know that another person has been through the exact same thing and has gotten through it. You will too! I can't wait until i can say i'm on day 11, everyday is an accomplishment for us. Anxiety and depression are the emotional withdraws that we must go through in order to be well. Just get through yours and know that it's not real and it's just your body trying to recuperate!! Keep your head up! oxox

[dedicatedtostop]

No your not, it's just 1 day. We all have to face the fact that we are going to have days like these. Just don't let it get you down.. Please trust me, force yourself to do anything to get your mind off of this. I love this forum but sometimes it is best to get up and walk away from it for awhile, and go do something to get your mind off of it!! Tomorrow is a new day, today is just " a day", and it will pass!!!! Sit back and really look at how far you have came, then go find your happy place!!! You got this

[dem214]

Thanks for your comments. I was doing so good up till yesterday. No depression and excited about a life without drugs. What has happened. I feel like I am progressing backwards.  

[dedicatedtostop]

You better stop and check yourself right now because you CAN do this!!!!! You made it through 11 days of hell, do you really want to go back there?? Really? YES it gets better, it is what you make of it. Get up and do something, anything( walking is my thing) works wonders!! Crank up some music and listen I mean really listen to the lyrics, I bet you lose yourself in every song. THIS IS ONLY A MOMENT and it WILL PASS!!!!!! Push through it. I am only 7 days in and loving life, if I can do it you can!!! Read my post on day 6 never again, and get pumped up!!! This moment will pass. You CAN and will beat it

[dem214]

By the way I have been exercising.  I have always been into working out.  What else can I do to help.