Day Two

[CarmineVercetti]

Well suprisingly, I dont feel too horrible, I am getting ready for work and I didnt wake up with sheets that were soaked in sweat, I dont have really bad anxiety, and I feel actually decent, I prayed alot yesterday and spend a couple hours out on my boat just laying there in the Sun so hoping that helped.  Thanks alot everyone for the support, I know I can do this!!!!  cheers to another day even though its only my second

[dedicatedtostop]

But obviously you love yourself enough to change otherwise you wouldn't hate what set you back:)...... Find what works for you and you can beat this thing!!!

[CarmineVercetti]

Thanks guys, I think I am going to do some meetings........I do want sobriety more than anything........grrrrrrrrrllskdjflskjfalkdsnflaskfjaklj thats how I feel about this stupid addiction right now, i hate myself for the things that I do

[IBKleen]

Here is the link to finding a meeting near you:

http://portaltools.na.org/portaltools/MeetingLoc/

But hun, you are going to have to want this. They can't cure you, they can only guide you. You will need to come to the fact that you are powerless over drugs and your life becomes unmanageable when you use. It is a great fellowship, not for everyone, but you are worth it so give it a shot.

I wish you the best.

[LeaAnn807]

Well, you start over!  I think meetings would help you. See, you were doing fine physically, but you did it anyway, so it had nothing to do with feeling bad as far as WDs.  So that tells me that  you need to take care of the mental/psychological part of your addiction.  Our brains can talk us into just about anything when we aren't feeding it good stuff.  Sitting around thinking about pills, talking to users and dealers.....bad ideas.  Gotta change something or nothing changes!  

[CarmineVercetti]

Sorry guys, I let myself down......picked up 2 20 mg oc's.......Does anyone here attend NA meetings?  I am wondering if that will help me relapse, its like I get out of the deep water just to start over again........I hate myself I was feeling fine and didnt need to get more :-(   I have no control over this addiction

[snakejones]

Good to see you--and I am so glad you are doing nicely! Hang in there and continue your dialogue with God---and us, too! (trialogue? lol)

[CarmineVercetti]

Thanks, I am seriously in awe......I feel like I had some huge reckoning or whatever I might call it, I was praying and praying and I am seriously not having barely any symptoms, I prayed for god to cleanse my body and mind of all the wicked things that I have been doing and I seriously think something supernatural is going down.........I should be in hell on day two right now but i have hope, energy and a direction.......I cant turn back now.  Sobriety is my only chance, God has blessed me when I needed him the most.....truly amazed right now

[dominosarah]

Yes you can do this and you are!!!  The sun always makes a person feel better.  Stay positive and keep this going!  

Congrats on 2 days~~

[LeaAnn807]

: ) Congrats!  Hope your day goes well!