I feel like throwing the towel guys!

[LONESOME]

Well I can't believe I'm about to say this but I really feel like throwing the towel guys, I'm so frustrated feel like I'm not doing anything good I have so much in my plate right now and for the first time in 4 months since I been on the sub I feel like I just once I want to feel like I did not when I was full flown addict but just when I was taking a few hydros. I really hate my self for saying it but I'm really falling hard in my a***** and just want to stop everything and just say no no no no to everything and everyone. I'm on sub still and doing good but lately I don't know can you guys help me just say mean things to me so that I can snap at least lol
Thank you (and I'm not lonesome) lol
I'm Galdy and I'm and addict  

[EmilyPost]

I'm also glad to see you are feeling better today. I'll be hoping that you and your son walk into the exact right meeting and find comfort there! Know this, you are not alone. We are all here with you.

Hugs,
Emily

[toxictome]

Absolutely....an AA or NA mtg. would be GREAT!!! I am also a recovering alcoholic. I have been going to AA mtgs. for over 17 yrs.  I haven't had a drink, but I did get hooked on vicodin  3 yrs. ago.  Yes, I substituted one drug for another. I have been clean for 5 months. I like AA better than NA......just my personal preference. The meetings teach you how to deal w/ life on lifes terms. As others have said, shop around until you find a meeting you like.

I haven't had cravings for alcohol in yrs., but i still get cravings for the pills. Going to  a meeting gives you a place to talk about it and get support. It also gives you a chance to make friends w/ sober, clean people. It does get better. Just hang in there!!!

[LONESOME]

Desprete
Oh yeah my "doctors" are the best there the old fashion ones that do everything for you as far as care goes lol
Emily
Thank you I have a "real Doctor" appt. today lol I'm going to restracture my medications and stuff and see if that will work.
Toxictome
Yes I really need to go to meetings my husband didn't want me to go he still dosen't want me to go because he says that is a good place to find drugs and stuff he dosen't even know cause thanks God he dosen't have any problems with drugs or alcohool but I guess some of his friends have gone to AA and that is what they say

[worried878]

That is too bad ur husband feels that way about NA/AA...wonderful places to get support .. i go to a ladies group every monday and no one there would dare share drugs, drinks or anything else...it is a peaceful...wholesome group...it is an AA group but it helps me and i fit there...Now I have been to some mixed groups for NA and the men can be a bit crude...now i am deep down south as well...i found the meeting that was right for me...i wish u luck but i would take charge of my recovery if it were me...it is u that has to fight this battle to stay clean...look for a ladies group even if it is AA...good luck and keep posting

[LONESOME]

Thank you I will find a place TODAY and go because I think it will be very helpful for me and my son

[toxictome]

I have heard about finding drugs at NA mtgs., but I havent' heard that about AA mtgs. Just remember...today you have the choice to "SAY NO TO DRUGS"!!! lol