Yes, I can understand why, not only did it help tremendously with my backpain, the surge of energy kept me going. What scares me most is that even before the pills I was a person with low energy. I'll be honest, if it wasn't about the money spent on it, I would never have made the real decision to quit. Instead of using one of the two week offs I get from work to be miserable. I don't know, is really all I can say.
I am pretty sure 90% of opiate addicts get hooked because of the energy and motivation they give us, its by far the hardest thing to get used to. I know that no one wants to classify themselves as an addict and attend any type of therapy but NA meetings do boost the confidence. We all hide our addictions and at least there you don't need to hide, even if you don't share.
As far as energy, once your physical withdrawals go away and you can sleep semi-normal I would suggest caffeine and you should be taking B12 right now. Clondine works well with anxiety and even sleep, as far as motivation that is really dependent on your own will power. Withdrawal is such a mind game, we tend to read all these horrible things online which then only makes it worse. The cool thing is after you get a few days clean you really start to feel great about yourself every new day you make it. You start to feel like a contributing person in society, not someone that is always medicated and fake. Its a whole lot easier to stop when you toss your stash as well, its too easy to have a weak moment and relapse otherwise. SSRI's (anti-depressants) can help as well.
I hear ya, the lack of energy is really really hard. I'm having a hard time mentally right now. My emotions are all over the place and I feel really lonely right now and just feel down. I can't wait for work to be done so I can go home and be with my husband. I bought calmsupport and DLPA and L-Tyrosine. I did not use the L-Tyrosine though, wish I didn't buy it because DLPA is suppose to be similar and give you more energy and better your mood but I don't feel like these pills have been helping me. Unless they are and I just don't know it. Honestly, it's just going to take time for all of us. Which I know is hard but we don't have a choice. Hang in there, it gets better!! I sent you an email if you want to respond....
My children are literally my everything. My world revolves around them and unfortunately those damn pills. My mood was always better, my energy to do things was better. I just don't know what to do with myself right now. I made this decision on my own to quit, and now my husband is not being understanding, I know he is trying to "help" me through it and not give up, but coming from a person who has never experienced this, it infuriates me because his suggestions are just stupid or very non sympathetic. I hate this world I'm stuck in right now. I just dont know anything anymore.
It really, really ***** and no one around me understands. I think ive gone through the worst last night with the chills and sweats, fever, and aches. But I'm just anxious to feel energetic again. My husband is going to buy my L-Tyrosine or however you spell it and I know the thomas recipe says to wait until day 4 but I'm desperate to get up and going. I am so dearly afraid that after these 7 days I've taken off to better myself, I will fall again because of the low energy. My life is anything but slow paced and I really don't have a month or more to recuperate.
As far as money goes, I know what you mean about how much it can drain the bank account. Not even counting the money spent on pills, I used to buy stuff with zero discretion, stuff I wouldn't even want if I wasn't high on pills. Its like you try to fill a void. I made horrible decisions while on them that seemed like such a great idea at the time. Its embarrassing to even think about.