I messed up badly...oh god

[cedahlia]

I'm on day 4 and today I flushed all my pils  except for one quarter of a pill. While getting ready for the dinner party, I started to have a panic attack and I took the pill. Now  I can't stop crying because I can't believe I did that. How far back will this set me? I can't believe I was so stupid. All this hard work and pain and i just ****** up. What do I do guys? Oh my god,,,,

[cedahlia]

thanks so much guys... when i make it to the end of the tunnel.. i don't know how i'll express my gratitude. I make some pretty great lavender cookies? :)  I'm going to try and stop crying now. You guys really don't think it will make that much of a difference?

[hopsing94]

Hey don't beat yourself up. What you experienced is the same thing we all do. You cant do anything about it now and that small amount will not take you back. I just hope you realize that you are still in a weak state. That is why I say be careful. The mind is powerful and so is this addiction. Be glad you only had that one or you could be heading down that road again. Now get out of the house and go have some fun. Don't dwell on it and get right back up on the high road get this job done. You can do this.

[virgo1969]

Dry those tears and get going to your dinner party. Enjoy yourself and laugh! It does wonders. You are still on track. You have no more pills so don't beat yourself up over the 1/4 you took. Just pick yourself up and keep on going. Your are stronger than you think!

[mtrying]

I've seen it happen as part of recovery, don't be too hard on yourself.

[cedahlia]

thanks... i just feel so awful... i know it was just a quarter but, why didn't i flush that to? oh man.. thanks though, you did make me smie

[Coolio Hernendez]

From what i have read ,this is all part of recovery.

Do not let this set you back.

Take as a lesson of just how powerful this **** is (pills).