I must share....

[Jlyn1014]

Do you find whenever you make the choice to stop the pills, it never fails, they rain from the sky, ugh!  I feel like a MILLION BUCKS for resisting my first BIG temptation.  My husband broke his rib yesterday was seen and prescribed a bottle full of narco!  Ugh, right?!  As Im on day 8 of no pills!  I couldn't help but look at that little prescription bottle sitting on our mantle and SMILE as if your not getting me again!!!  It is so invigorating

[Junip]

I cannot reiterate what Evolver said enough; please consider telling your husband about your addiction. Like she said, my husband was more upset that I didn't have enough faith in him to tell him sooner. He was upset that I was dealing with it for so long on my own. Telling him was like a weight was lifted. Also, I had someone else to be accountable to and more importantly, I had his support. Even if your husband doesn't really understand, he will most likely be more supportive than you think.  And it is great that you resisted taking any meds when they were so easily accessible, but it might not be that way the next time. It is important for you to tell your husband because it is so early in your recovery and as Gnarly said, those pills need to be locked up. I am not trying to,be negative in any way and you are doing GREAT, but I am just making suggestions because of my own experience. Keep up the great work!

[Livingsfree]

What ever you do, don't buy kratom to help you. I was 2 weeks clean. .. out of the woods. But had slight depression  due to paws. So i bought some, did it for 2 weeks and had to quit yesterday because i started  feeling  extreme nausea and ddizziness. Well...  this morning i started to feel the tall tale signs of opiate wd. I'm severely depressed,  severely emotinal and have a runny nose. And that's on top of still feeling dizzy and nauseated  from the kratom. Man.... weekday s big mistake.  I would have been 29 days cleans of anything.

[staase]

So glad I found this forum. Yes, raining from the sky, I agree. Twice now, started tapering and first time, co-worker comes to me wanting to sell his hydros 7.5 for a buck a piece. Um, I'm a weak weak person and said uhh, yeah! Second time, went from 80-100mg hydro per day down to 10 which is what I'm prescribed, with the help of a very good friend. Got my script refilled right before he went on a week long trip. I should've left them with him. Then had a friend text with another helluva deal on some tens! Why can't I just say no!!?? Went directly back to the 80-100mg a day, took my last pills yesterday (15mgs) and attempting once again to taper and quit. Thankfully my friend is back and ready to help me again. No judgement for relapsing, just tough love. Lol. Hope you can stay clean! And praying I can do this. 4 kids and a full time job, I have no choice but to quit.

[TGD0618]

Very happy for you! Please tell your husband to lock them up or throw them away.  I'm 3 days in to kicking a 15 year Vicodin habit so I'm right behind you, and I know how hard It would be to see them sitting in my house.  Stay strong!  

[EvolverU]

Hi there & Congrats on kicking & on passing your first Big test! :)

Like Gnarly said..get that thing off the mantle! Even if you don't feel tempted right now, it's best to put it out of sight & reach (trust us).

Many people feel that their loved ones & friends won't understand or that they'll be judged. It's so important for us to have support. Strangely enough, (or perhaps not so strangely), folks usually discover when they open up that the thing that bothered those near & dear the most was that they didn't Trust them enough to tell them sooner. I guarantee you it will be a relief to tell someone & that it will help your chances of staying clean going forward. It's not easy to open up sometimes but it'll be a mark of your commitment to this whole process & to the sorts of changes & work it requires.

So, please, think about facing down that shame & fear & telling the most non-judgmental person that's close to you. :)

[Jlyn1014]

^^ Very true!!!

[Krissy_123]

Congrats!!! But do becareful,a day will come that they will be calling you and that detox isn't fresh in your head anymore. All it takes,is oh I can take just one,I blew through that detox....

[Jlyn1014]

Whatever works, I know for myself day 2,3,and4 were the worst for me!  Each eveing I had to "down" two beers before hubby got home.  Just to relieve my misery a smig until bedtime!  Then sleeping on the couch so I could rock myself and ants around without him knowing UGH.... Never want to do that again!!

[Jlyn1014]

I understand the bottle calling!  I've done this enough now, I KNOW just one pill, and I'm back in that miserable cycle!  Trying not to be too confident, One day at a time!  I hate those life sucking little things so much!  And if I never chew/swallow another, I'll be better for it :)

[Jlyn1014]

I do feel good mentally, physically I'm working out trying to get this slug off me :)  I feel fresh, like everything is getting brighter!  It's a wonderful feeling, oh and I laughed so hard I almost peed myself!!  I miss that old me!  I took anywhere from 5- 8 pills a day for many many years!   Mostly narco as they are easy to get!  Percocet 10's were my fave!  All I know, is I can't even take one EVER again!  Then I'll never have to go through hell again!  What was tough was hiding my misery!  I don't ever have to go back there again!  Woo Hoo

[gnarly_1]

Hi...you need to get that bottle off your mantle it is going to call to you ...your husband needs to respect your willingness to quit as addicts we do not ever need to ''test'' ourselfs............Gnarly

[LookingUp1980]

OMG!!!  YES!!!  They rain from the sky!!  I just posted about how I was at a work event last night & was offered FREE Vicodin!!!  CONGRATS!!  For resisting.   How much were you on when you were taking?  I bet you are starting to feel pretty good at 8 days.

[Jlyn1014]

My husband and has no idea I've been taking pills steady for 10+years!  Honestly I feel family and friends would be shocked to know.  I have God, my mom, and one close friend who knows the depth of my addiction and are my supporters!  I also feel I will get stronger with each temptation I turn from!  I guess when you're done, you're done!  It's been a LONG time coming for me.  I despise that dark, shameful, prison of addiction!   BAM... Take that you harmful little pills!!!  Hey thanks for listening to my proud moment

[Jlyn1014]

Aw man...Half my message didn't post!