I never cease to amaze myself!

[worried878]

Had a date...I brought it up yesterday...I knew he had tabs from an injury and that he doesnt take them...got thru the whole night...my shoulder was hurting..he offered the 5 /5mg tabs he had left to me...i took them...i did not swallow them but i have them..I felt it coming all day...i know i gotta get rid of them...WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF!

[persnick38]

I'm right there with ya. Let's get a good night's sleep and pray that tomorrow is a better day. Hang in there. You did good. Be proud of yourself for that.

[Katrina80]

DONT TAKE THEM, FLUSH THEM RIGHT AWAY!

[worried878]

I sure hope so...been a hard weekend for some reason...I was driving home listening to stairway to heaven...thinking how much better is used to sound!  I need to go to bed..tomorrow is another day

[toxictome]

Way to go , ms. worried...i knew you would make the right choice...I have been craving all day...i am back home now so i know i will be safe for tonight, and i hope i'll have a different mindset tomorrow!!!

CONGRATS!!      Keep being strong...and fighting the fight!!!    ~HUGS~

[worried878]

Thanks cathy...you know sometimes your mind plays trix on you and u r like...Why cant I take a couple?   I know why....guess i need reminding....first time that i have had an urge that lasted all weekend...i know it is because i knew he had some and i knew he would give them to me...he would do just about anything i asked of him...too bad i am emotionally unavailable right now...then again, that turns alot of men on..  LOL...I may tell him about my problem so it wont happen again...he is my friend for many years ...and persnick...wll shred those files!   no longer applicable

[cathy5841]

thanks for takeing them back....i knew you would do the right thing.  you just bolstered my faith in you.....love ya girl

[confused456]

Persnick has hit the nail on the head with that!!!! I agree 110%!!!!!!
That was a wonderful response Persnick!!!

[persnick38]

I am so glad you took them back! Good for you.

You need to put some new files in that filing cabinet. Next time you go searching for a file, look under "S" for Sobriety, "C" for clean, "R" for recovery (that comes before the R file for Relapse so don't go past it), or "D" for Damn proud of myself for making it this far!

Shred the rest of those files - they're outdated.

Hang in there. This too shall pass....

[worried878]

I never thought about canceling the date...would have been the best thing to do...but i know he has them so it is there....i have known for 2 weeks and have said nothing...just a bad weekend...nice weekend and I feel great...do not understand why I am craving..It is like the seed gets planted in my brain and it doesnt really go away for a while...I dont consciously think about it all the time...but it is in my filing cabinet memory waiting to be opened...filed away under  "screw yourself up today...do it...do it...make yourself miserable and feel bad...take one!"

[confused456]

LOL...oops, sorry my response was short and showed up before yours did!! LMAO....sorry!

Congrats on making the best decision!! I knew you could do it!!

[worried878]

and I did put one in my mouth and couldnt swallow it....spit it out and flushed that one...i felt like it would kill me if i took it....i feel nauseated from this whole thing

[worried878]

I went by his house and gave them back to him...I told him I am allergic to them..I should have told him about my problem then he would not do this again...I really am broken out from a spray tan rxn...so I think he believed me,,I had left my jacket there last night and just handed them back to him....I wanted just one sooo bad...I do ok til i know they are there...like close...I mean I can always drive 20 minutes and go buy some...I have not even wanted to do that...I have to see my doc next month too and he always writes me a scrip for 30...gotta tell him NO MORE!  I already told my other doc that gave me a bunch
thanx

[confused456]

You never cease to amaze me either!!!!!!
I am sooooo proud of you!!!!!
HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!
Big hugs to you!

[corey411]

Try to be stronger than me and flush them. You may have read another post I made about my day 6 relapse Friday evening finding 10-10mg oxys and 3 Vics. I'm on the last 2 and didn't even go through the fight to flush since I already chewed 2 and relapsed. This is day 3 using actually a theraputic dose and I've gotten sick--headache which I frequently get when I relapse and my tolerance is low...I puked several times Friday night and had such a severe headache yesterday I had to stay in bed 4 hrs. I puked for 2 hours. Today I'm still not flushin cause when I'm a screw up I'm a dam good one. My grandkids are here and my boyfriends getting ready to bake the Raviolli(Italian Easter thing). My headache came back again today and is finally starting to fade after laying down. I absolutly know that I would feel better now and for the passed 2 days if I wouldn't have used. This isn't just effecting me but I want to be playing with my 5 year old grandson(who just walked in) and everyone will have a good Easter but would have been better if I would have stayed tough and resisted and or flushed. Tommorrow will be day 1 again instead of day 9. Hope you can do better than I did . Blessings, Corey

[toxictome]

I was invited to go to my sisters today...her husband is going to have surgery on his shoulder and is on vics..and my other sis has soemthing going on with her legs...and she has vics...and I decide NOT to go today...becuz I can't trust myself that I wouldn' tbe rummaging around looking for them....I have not told these 2 sisters yet...and I didn't want to tell her 'HIDE your pills...I'm coming over"....i have had really strong cravings also...as long as i stay in my house...i won't get any...heehee

I did go to church this morning and asked God to remove this ..he hasn't yet!!!!  LOL

[toxictome]

In regards to your post yesterday about "relapse"...if you take these pills...it WIll be a RELAPSE...and you have to go back to square one..DON"T DO IT!!!!

FLUSH>>FLUSH>>>FLUSH>>>>

I have faith in you ms. worried..(((((HUGS)))))

[K Todd]

LOL !!!!

Just go flush em! - You'll be glad you did in the days to come!

Todd

[allaboutmary]

Don't make us have to come over there. I want to hear that flush !  You are doing so great and have come so far. Take it from a relapser. IT'S NOT WORTH IT !  
Hope you have a very Happy Easter.  Hugs,  Mary

[newgirl2708]

worried, 'and they swam and they swam right back to the dam...'  all day you knew and you still went...that might be something to think about...hmm...why put yourself there? Blows we throw our own way..Stay strong..you are going to do this!!!

gtmi: OMG, LMAO....

[newmanagment]

GTMI -roflmao.....

[GoingToMakeIt]

We have made special arrangements to not inform the FDA, DEA, Dept of Agriculture...nor the FBI, CIA, NCIS or OSI. Your decision is safe with us!

[newmanagment]

I agree with the  rest , you have come this far, your not gonna setcha self back r ya?! get rid of the pills please, none of us want to see you put yourself thru this. this is gonna sound funny, maybe think im a lil strange. but the reason i dont have a problem with pills , is because i dont take them. refused morphine when shot, watched my nurse shoot it herself!! try this, pain is an emotion, just like every thing else.. block that emotion by concentrating on another one, like how happy you are to not be using. i cant promise this is gonna work for you, matter a fact, my wife thinks im crazy cuz i can do it.. but ya may find that your stronger physically and mentally then ya think... good luck, kerflush, and keep ya chin up....

[confused456]

Worried:
You can flush! I know you have the strength to do it. Hugs......confused

[worried878]

LOL...this i know..feed the fish