I really did it this time and im scared as HELL

[redbull]

Some of you helped me some years back and now I've really did a number to myself. Now it's not lortab/soma combo. Now it's this damn oxycodone 15mgX6 but I'm sick as all **** tapering from 120and135mg throughtout the day. I'm old skool 50 yr's old now that always kicked the hard way c/t. My question is this....Will the Thomas Recipe work at this high of dose without dyeing? I just suck at a slow taper, I was sent home today by the boss cause I was in such bad shape. What's the cut off point, when do you just die? I'm not a young man anymore.

[redbull]

it also just hit me your not a girl, sorry. the icon is pretty so it gave me wrong impression. sorry bout that.

[redbull]

It just hit me girl..."Keep your knees in the breeze" Your not talking about my riding are you? Your talking about "hitting my knees" in prayer arn't you? Either way...your making me smile And Think.

[redbull]

so I go to see my pain management doc this am to get some (30) soma for my night kicks, when used correctly there wonderful. He is beside himself that I did what I did, says he never seen anyone c/t off Oxy like that before and even though he could not condone it, it seemed like I been there done that, knowing all about blood presure checking and the use of L-tyrosine and minerals and such, that he just felt his hand forced to give me the clonodine and valium i requested. Amazed! he was for sure, says I'm the toughest SOB he's ever encountered (not sure that's a compliment or not) Anyway I had him hit my *** w some B12 and give up a few soma for bedtime and agreed to depart friends.

Then I go to the dentist at 1:00 (a bridge broke last night, needed it fixed) It's not a 20 min ordeal, I'm in his chair for 2 hrs...drilling, cutting, grinding the whole 9 yards. Jesus that **** hurts. Were all done and he says let me write you a script....NO NO NO! I say I'm good, I just spent 8 days getting off Oxy, trust me I tell him, this pain doesn't hold a candle to the pain I just went through, I'm good really! My wife has some Advil at home I'll be fine. Doc Jones pats me on the back and says "Your an interesting man John, I like you, have a great Thanksgiving" That really made me feel good him saying that.

eyeofhorus2010 "knees in the breeze" you damn right! I am so free when I ride and riding clean is even more FREE. It's fallen into place

[eyeofhorus2010]

Like they say " Keep your knees in the breeze." Everything else will fall into place. Glad you're doing well.

[Bkitty]

~Its an awsome feeling isnt it! Yeah for day 7! Congrats!~

[redbull]

I'm alive! I woke up feeling pretty damn good, I can't believe it. Really thought I'd die on this one. I have a hell of a resolve with my old recovery material lately. Remember when a page you read totally hit a certain spot then next time you read it it hit another spot. Well..through a lot of laughter and tears, new spots never touched before are being touched. Amazing! I haven't had a pill in 7 days...Jesus, the hell it takes before you finally just drop to your knees and pray for the light to freedom.
Thankyou EVERYBODY. You guys (and girls) are part of Gods plan...on a damn computer screen! Can you believe that?