I just want some encouragement as i was on subutex and got down to 6 mg and did a 2yr music degree and then aftyer the corse finished I home detoxed but it went wrong with this and that , well basically i used , and used for about 3 weeks ....the medical center put me back on methadone and titrated me to 75 ml - I'm so gutted I'm back on it , I'm on diazapam too but thats tapered dwon from 40mg to 20 and stopped there
I want to know what the way forward could be and what the sid eefcts are for methadone ---Ive been on it 6 weeks now and i feel a bit detached ,, Ive put on weight and ache in the mornings and feel tired all the time , Ive got hep C too , I keep forgetting stuff and just feel lost , but I'm mentally well and can get my thought pattern postaive if I try , I know I can get back to being clean but it will take a while ....any advice will be gratefully reicived , I know it will be hard to detox off meth the longer I'm on it but also its better to be on this than street drugs, Im very well into NOT ever using again and mabey it took this to get that into my psyche ...I hate drugs now , and was a frequent lapser even at college , so this is a painfull position to be in but lesson learned .
Ps .I wonder if its better to be on meth while I have the interferon treatment soon for hepatitus C, got to try and see a posative side to this ?