you can do it!!!! Ok so you messed up,,, pick yourself up and try again. Baby I have been sober for three years now but if I stopped every time I messed up, I would have never got three years under my belt. Sometimes relapse is a part of recovery. Baby girl we learn from our mistakes, so if we never make any mistakes then how would we learn?????? So get up and start over!!! You can do it. We are all here for you. Give rehab a try. I know you think you wont make it but maybe rehab is just what you need. If nonthing else, at least it will give you some time away from all the bad things in your life. Try it, you might just like it. You can do it sweetie. Keep posting and let me know how you are doing!!! You are in my thoughts and prayers!!!!
ps by the way, my spelling *****!!! lol
Thanks Lisa I really appreciate the support. 3 years congratz that's so awesome! I hope to be sober in 3 years. I ll give rehab a try maby only a few weeks, but at least it's better than nothing. I still can't sleep, all I want to do is have a few cones so I can sleep. My dealer got caught by the cops, that's kinda good cause now I don't have someone around the corner to get off.