Day 6 hell?????

[Mcr2001]

Well yesterday wasn't bad but last evening around 9 it all went downhill.  Anxiety; restless legs, emotional issues, insomnia,  stomach cramps bad along with diarrhea and vomiting.  3 mg of prescribed Xanax (yes I know that's more than a dr would prescribe I took triple) did nothing.  I am at my wits end.  I actually called off work for the first time in 6 months

[LostNoMore]

First, hang in there! You're right in the thick of it. Things will start to level out.
Make sure you stay hydrated. Very important. You will get through this. Remember that whatever is going on with you right now will pass. Taking a pill is not an option anymore.

As for the xanax, don't take more than you have to. If it's not helping, just take your normal dose. As I'm sure you know, xanax will need a taper to
get off. But right now you've got your hands full.

As for the insomnia, we all have it. It's part of the deal. I know it's no fun.
Try some OTC sleep aids before running to your doctor for a pill. You say you're not a downer kind of person, but I think it's playing with fire to get into drug-seeking mode when we get uncomfortable during detox. Nobody wants to hear this when they haven't slept for a while, but your body will sleep when it needs to. Be patient, know that things will get better.

[minn66]

Mcr, glad you're doing better now. Drives ya nuts how it comes and goes, doesn't it? Please be careful with the Xanax. Short term use should be OK but believe me, coming off of benzos will make this seem like a cakewalk. I am tapering from Clorazepate, after quitting opiates in November.

Hang in there!

[Mcr2001]

I did tell my friend not to contact me.  I can't have the temptation.  I feel better today I just think it was cause I had a bad night last night.  I am gonna try to get vacation time for the rest of the week.  I am much more tempted at work.  I have a first therapist appointment next Thursday.  Home is a lot easier.  Walks, games, tv, and music help a lot so I think I will be fine.  Just hate these damn Xanax...I've been prescribed them for 8 years and never took more than 20 in a month.  I blew that out of the water this week alone...

[minn66]

Six days is great! Have you told your friend you don't want those things any more? Overall, the physical aspect should be getting better soon. In the early days you'll have more good days, yet a bad one will sneak in there. Try to keep as busy as you can and know that a better day is around the corner. If you haven't already, now would be a good time to seek out aftercare of some sort. You will be around people with the same goal as you and you'll have people you can talk to if you are tempted.

Congratulations and stay strong. One day at a time.

[littlebit667]

I was talking to my daughter yesterday about how I was doing emotionally since I have been pill free.  I had noticed that things I could shrug away when dope happy are starting to bother me now.  The pills helped me cope with sadness, frustration and helped me ignore things I was feeling.  I am now trying to relearn my mental coping skills.  I am a lot more sensitive..which in my case can be good and bad.  I was always a bit more reactive to situations that in my happy haze I just shrugged off.  My older than her years daughter was a help in getting me to see that again.   She is an amazing adult and I am lucky to have her.  Just a thought as our brains start to function.  I hope you can hold strong when your "friend" gets his pills.  I use friend loosely because they tend to be our friends when we can buy from them.  Maybe that friend needs to go away for a long time until you have more recovery under your belt.  

[Mcr2001]

Thanx everyone I know it is just a bump... Some stressful things happened at home that would have sent me running to the pecs and when I didn't, I wasn't sure where to turn.  I am not afraid of addiction to Xanax because I hate the things I wanna be upbeat not zoned out. I am going to the dr. Today for maybe something to help me sleep.  I have never had issues with downers as they r not my style of life.  I'll pick up immodium again too the mental part is hitting hard and Friday will be the worst that is when my " friend is do for his refill of 150 God help me I just don't know If I am that strong

[littlebit667]

Immodium will help so much....keep hydrated (we forget that when feeling miserable).  Eat something for energy.  Call your doctor for supportive meds. I have some for the restless legs...needed sleep and was getting none.  If you have not gotten outside...get some sun today..walking will help the restless legs (get some sun that way)!  If you have been drinking caffeine ...stop for a few hours.  Gatorade or vitamin water might help instead.  Turn lights down and do some deep breathing.  My daughter gave me some to use and it helped some.  http://www.calmclinic.com/anxiety/treatment/breathing-exercises

I hope this is just a bump in the road as mentioned.  Keep posting it will help as you get thru this.

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

hey mate sorry your having a bad time huni take a few deep breaths i know how ya feeling and its hell jump into a bath or shower it helps ya legs n to relax a bit r u takin any vitamins huni look up the Thomas recipe ur not alone mate Im 23 days clean where fighting for our lives mate just take it hour by hour minute by min sometimes second by second but believe in yourself huni  the worst is nearly over huni it does get better much love n prayers aj xoxoxoxo

[wransomejr]

These days happen. Stay the course; usually just a bump in the road. If the problems don't get better see your doctor.