Yea, I"m back again

[KirstenHere]

For months, I had it mostly under control...then I don't know what happened. I just kept using more and more like I used too. I just went through 3 of my scripts 10/325 vics, 90 each, and 80 of the same from my mother...all within 3 weeks.
I haven't had any since Thursday and feeling like I'm dying. It's all can think about...I can't stand it! I have a script for ambian, but don't have the money to get it out. I have been eating tylenol pm like freaking crazy.
I actually don't ind any of it except for the legs cramps and always thinking about it. every thing else I can handle. I really want to sleep the next week away and wake up brand new.

Someone please give me some encouraging words

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

What they said - - - and try the hylands rls formula - available at walmart

[wannabefree330]

Well the good thing is you haven't had anything for 3 days now.  So you are experiencing the worst of what is to come right now.  Hang in there.  When I had the bad leg cramps I took an extra multi vitamin and ate a banana.  Helped long enough to get some good sleep.  Ditch the Tylenol PM, just take benadryl.  You don't need the extra tylenol in your system right now going through that much in the Rx you took.  I doubt the ambien would help anyway. The mental part is tough, but......you did choose to go down this road again....so there has to be some consequence eh?......what will you do different next time?

I suggest you NEVER assume you have 'IT' "under control".  When you begin thinking you do, think again.  This never goes away.  It will always sit back waiting for you to let down your guard, and suck you in......faster and more forceful every time.

[cattalina]

First of all - welcome back! I won't preach much but I will say this... I hope you know now that you'll never have using under control!!  You're an addict, we can't control drug use... Ok - now for the encouraging stuff!! Congratulations! You made an awesome decision to stop using and to come back to the forum! Be proud of yourself! You know that the wds won't last forever you're basically halfway thru it already. Just think of how much better you're gonna feel when this is over...  :)