how are you coping today?

[MsSally]

Whether clean. Tapering. Or still using. I'm trying feeling guilty that my man is doin so much cleaning :) aside from lifetime movies lol following my bf around and doing my best at helping. Trying to pass time without thinking. Need my life back. So many things I let slide that have no reason sliding. I mean really. I get a free carpet cleaning every year and I have 10 days to use it. Pathetic these demons have taken away the simple tasks. What once gave energy and motivation soon gave depression and misery. Let myself go. Lived in jammies. How could my man touch me when I was so disgusting.  Today I'm facing those issues head on.  Bringing back the old me :)

[misty97]

i know exactly how u feel..my hubby cleaned and took care of kids..and i felt so guilty..im 10 days clean now and i still have to make my self get up and go but its getting better..energy is coming back in spurts..best  of luck and dont give up..

[theaddict]

i've got my DVR set to record all things lifetime movies today!

[all_alone1]

Hey missally......I left you message..

[kk1303]

I'm on day 7 and still not really sleeping. I can't wait to just have one good night's rest! I broke down this morning & bawled my eyes out bc I was just so frustrated that I couldn't sleep. I don't have much energy (due to the lack of sleep.) My fiancé just took me to target & we parked far out in the parking lot & walked the perimeter of the whole store so I could get a little exercise. My legs felt like speghetti noodles...so weak. I've had a little anxiety today bc I have to go to class tomorrow (I missed the whole first week last week cuz

[kk1303]

..dang, didn't mean to post yet. ...cuz I was so sick. I'm hoping being back in class will make me feel normal again & hopefully take my mind off not sleeping.  

[lulu747]

Hi Sally...KK..
Happy Sunday...
I know it can be overwhelming to find yourself sober and WTF happened to my life??  The guilt and fear can be overwhelming...You need to let yourself feel those things and then LET THEM GO.  This is why aftercare is so important...Learning how to cope with emotions and just basic life without drugs...Sometimes it takes awhile and it takes patience...Recovery is a process.  

KK-
I know not sleeping is the worst-I struggled with it so much.  It will get easier when you go back to life and are distracted...The anxiety about not sleeping makes it harder to sleep...vicious cycle.  It WILL come back..And you'll have good nights and bad-just like a 'normal' person(:

Sally-
let go of the past and think about what you can do in THIS moment to make it the best moment you can...This is what works for me...
Lu

[Bkitty]

Be gentle on yourself sweetie,,youre in recovery. In due time the "old" new you is gonna peak thru,,you will see glimpses everyday. I know its hard,,I sat around and shook my head all the time of what I became,,,then I realized I had to forgive myself,,,and start loving myself and to do that I had to move past what I have done the last 8yrs. I remember looking in the mirror at every inch of me and was sooo disgusted. I turned that moment into looking at me and who I am. This is MY body not that ADDICTION anymore. I felt gross too,,,I quit tanning,,getting my nails done,,wearing makeup,,etc..In the beginning of detox,,I didnt care but guess what all that will to look good again returned..it just took some time. Baby yourself right now. Your BF can help clean up,,,Hey a lot of us women are prob jealous,,,ILOL! Lean on him,,,its ok to do that. It took about 3 weeks after detox that I finally started putting my house and my life back together and I havent stopped yet! Youll get there! One day at a time~(((HUGS)))~Bkitty

[dominosarah]

How many pills are you taking a day?