Here I am, 22 years old and fighting for my life.

[AwayFromTheSun]

First off, I began using opiates in August of 2008.  What started as recreational fun with friends quickly progrssed into a vicious pattern of everyday use.  My girlfriend and I enabled and supported each others use, which included not only snorting, but also smoking of Oxycontin 80mg and Oxycodone 30mg. In September of 2009 we split up, and I was able to get off all opiates and stay clean for 30 days, which was a tremendous acclompishment for me. However, I thought since I had been clean for that long I could use once and be just fine. This was not the case! I have been using heavily again ever since. I am now starting my second day being clean and feel pretty decent. I have one Suboxone and took a half of a quarter late last evening so I would be able to sleep. I want to get clean and live sober. I have caused myself a great deal of financial hardship and have greatly damaged my self-esteem. I plan to start going to Pills Anonymous starting Tuesday. Any support would be totally sweet!

[AwayFromTheSun]

Thanks man. I really don't wanna mess it up this time I have way too much too lose. I'll definitely keep posting because this really helps.

[Premiumav]

Bey I had 3 back surgerys and a hip surgery in the past 31/2 yrs and Ibsen hooked on over 300mg og oxys and roxys a day ..I really wanna stop because it is ruining my life ..please any help u can give me would be great

[Shoreside33]

Hey man, I'm 20 years old and I was using about 90-120 mg's of Oxy's and Roxy's for about 6 months and about a week and a half ago, I actually took a step back and looked at what I was actually doing.  I knew that I was young enough and had so much ahead of me that I just couldn't keep doing this to myself....just like you.  So last Sunday, I took my last pill.  The first few days were horrible and my sleep hasn't came back yet, but it's awesome to actually see what all you were missing.  Everything is so clear and it is such a weight off you when you're not thinking about your next pill every minute of the day.  You came to the right place too.  I was just looking for information about the withdrawals when I came across this site, and to be honest with you, I don't think that I could have accomplished this without the help from the people here and my parents.  If you have any questions, I know you can ask anyone on here and they would be more than happy to help, also, send me a message anytime if you need someone to talk to.  Stay with it man, it only gets better here on out.

[Addict63]

As an addict, each drug I took that got me high registered in the pleasure center of my brain for good. It stayed there. My first Vicodin 7.5 blew the back of my head off! I LOVED it! I had 26 years of AA sobriety when I finally took it for bad herniated disc pain. Trouble is, I had used opiates here in there during my drinking and drugging years. The opiate was just waiting to be "activated" again.  Really devious stuff. I go to NA, get with other addictis.  I also study addiction, vicodin, and how to stay clean like my life depends on it, because it does.

I wish you the best in your battle. We're all here for you ready to listen and share our experiences with you.

[moonshyne777]

I also got almost 30 days in and relapsed but for me it was the mental part - depression and anxiety that got me back using. Now I see that I need help to stay clean. I am doing NA meetings and getting a therapist who specializes in addiction. Anyone on here with a fair amount of clean time all have one thing in common - they got help. You should consider this too. Getting over the physical addiction is hard enough but the mental part is what kicks our ***** bad and is the cause of most relapses. Try getting some help even if you think you can do this alone..chances are you will fare much better with some help. Btw, congrats on 2 days!! Thats amazing and in a few more days you'll be through the worse of the physical crap. Try and get some aftercare lined up right away. I wish I had done that when I first detoxed, it would probably have saved me from having to do another detox...