Just as depressed if not more

[rich4dallas]

To all.
I am proud to say i have been clean from methadone for 7 months now.. I was addicted to about 100mg for a good 7 years prior to quitting..
my question and concerns are I sometimes think or feel like I am more depressed off the medication than I was on it..
over the past few months I find that I am slipping into a deep depression.. very very low energy, lack of motivation, sad, confussed, depressed, etc..
As i am extremely vournauable at this stage in my recovery.. I need some answers and HELP fast.. I dont want to go back, but I cant stand feeling the way I do anymore..
What should I do?? do I need to be on an antidepressent?? Is this just normal?? I dont think anybody deserves to live the way im living at the moment.. There has to be an answer...
I appreciate any advice and help...
Thanks

[donefornow]

Hang in there- I had 6 or 9 months clean from methadone- and was experiencing exact same thing you are going thru! I was freaked out cause I would see people 30 days clean smiling and happy for life- thought there was something wrong with me- eventually started using again and can tell you with out a shadow of doubt it is way worst then where you are at now- give it some time- see how you feel in a year (a day at a time) - everyone is different- check out doctors if have insurance maybe supplements or anti depressant can help- hang there

[Bkitty]

Hi there! From what Ive learned from other members on the forum is that methadone is one of the trickiest pills to get off of. It takes a long long time for your brain to heal and start making those chemicals on its own again. I can tell you from my experience,,,I came off a massive perk addiction. My saving grace this time around was that I sought out aftercare and NA. I also knew that depression was what kept me using the pills,,that was my underlying reason. I did see a doctor and was placed on several antidepressants that have helped me TREMENDOUSLY,,they kinda kick started my brain into producing the chemicals needed to balance you. Some members dont agree with going the anti-depressant road and some do. I do. The pills gave me a false sense of feeling,,I loved them because I could do anything and was happy and energetic,,but then they turned on me and I double and doubled them trying to get that feeling back,,,it never came back. 7 months off methadone is a HUGE accomplishment. HUGE. Its one of the hardest drugs to withdrawal from and the side effects of coming off can linger for a long long time. If this was me,,Id call my doc and ask for something. It took a lil while for me to figure out which antidepressants worked well for me and it was a rollercoaster but when I got the right mix,,,,I took off and flew. I also would get involved in NA again. You have come sooooo far! Hope you feel better soon~Bkitty